First trimester depression - please read :(

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Hoping some people can relate and make me feel not so alone. I am 11 weeks pregnant with my second child and I feel complete and utter hopelessness/depression. I have loads of history with anxiety and depression so I recognise it well but I haven’t felt like this for years. My daughter is just turned 3 and I take everything out on her whereas I’ve never been that kind of ‘shouty’ parent before I can’t be bothered to do anything with her and have 0 energy. I have had colds pretty much for the last 5 weeks that just keep returning so I feel totally run down. My husband has had a huge project on and has been working late and some weekends - I feel totally lonely/alone and can’t wait for the days to end from the moment I wake up.

I work from home and have started hating my job whereas I didn’t before. I’m also making errors (minor ones but I am a terrible critic of myself) due to pregnancy brain fog.

Sounds mad but I literally don’t remember how it feels to have energy and oomph - it feels like an effort to even leave the house at the moment and it’s really getting me down. Doesn’t help that it’s the most miserable month of the year!

Please tell me this’ll pass a bit second trimester?!

Just wanted to say, I’m 10 weeks and feel exactly the same. I’ve also just had loads of work drama too, due to being PG. My 2 year old is playing up no end and my voice has gone from having a cold and from screaming my head off. You haven’t mentioned worrying about your pregnancy though, which is good. I can’t help worrying about what my worrying must be doing to the babe.

The hcg is the highest now it will be, this must be the compounding force making us feel quite so horrendous. It will go down in the weeks from now on. Wishing you all the best

Go to see your GP - there are plenty of antidepressants that are safe during pregnancy, you shouldn't have to live like this. You can always come off them later on.

Hey, I totally feel your pain and emptiness! I am 21 weeks now and have really struggled-
Like you I suffer with anxiety and depression and having my second and already have a
Little girl of 3 years- my partner works lots and I work full time! I used to loveeee my job but have found that I have started to dislike it and like you made silly mistakes...i found working at home made me worse and forced myself to go to the office and out more with a bit of
Routine and felt I had more energy! Ive felt very lonely and disengaged from everything....I saw the infant mental health team and changed my medication -
When I look back to 1-16 weeks I was v v bad but I feel that I've become more positive and more happy slowly! Still feel completely wiped out and being sick but the mood has lifted! I really feel for you as you think is this it now? Am I going to feel like this forever - I feel like that too but have faith it will ease and go after birth!!!!

Keep talking and see you GP if you haven't already.... are you taking any meds? Seeing anyone to help with your mental health? Xx

I feel the same OP and I’m sorry you’re feeling this . This is my first so I can’t imagine having a little one to look after too.
Try and talk to the Dr , they might be able to help. I’ll certainly be mentioning it to my Consultant next week. I’m 10+3 weeks and I’ve been very low since about week 5 too. Just remember you’re doing so so well and we’re all here for you x x

Hey OP and all, I'm 10 weeks with my first and I've been suffering really low mood too. It's up and down but I've had this consistent sadness which manifests in different ways. It doesn't help that I'm exhausted and nauseous of course, but I definitely think it's also the intense hormones just wreaking havoc on my happiness! I recently spoke to my boyfriend, my mum and a close friend and since then I've felt a little better - sobbed at them that I was depressed and it wasn't normal to feel exhausted at the thought of even choosing what film to watch, etc. I think it really helped to talk about it and acknowledge it. I'm now feeling less depressed, and confident it will pass when the hormones die down in second trimester.
Do you usually get bad hormonal pms? I do, and this is 1000 times more hormones. Remember that it is just the hormones and it WILL pass. if you're in the UK your midwife should also be able to refer you to some mental health services if you need them. Xxx