How to handle my mood

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I’m pregnant with DC2. I was more chilled when I was pregnant with DC1 (more chilled than when I wasn’t pregnant in fact) but I’m an emotional mess this pregnancy.

I’m a nightmare to be around today. I’ve had a fight with DH and I’ve been told to stop being “emo” but I can’t. I feel so low and I can’t stop crying.

I had a name picked for DC2 but I don’t care about actually naming them now. I feel like I may as well hand DC1 and DC2 over as soon as DC2 is born.

How can I get out of these feelings? It seems to stem from feeling like a shit parent to DC1 and that I feel like a failure due to the birth and not being able to breastfeed but I don’t know if that’s just a red herring to hide other issues.

Help!

It sounds like you had PPD - were you diagnosed as such and if so did you get treatment?

You ought to go see your doctor if the answer to the above is no (actually even if it's yes) as it looks like you're suffering from it again.

Not breastfeeding doesn't make you a failure. Your child was fed and is healthy that's your job as a mother and you did it admirably x

My first trimester, I was full of rage. Completely inexplicable rage. Everything and everyone annoyed me and I took everything the wrong way. It passed.

If you're feeling low and have history of PND, then it's best you get some support from your midwife.

The hormones were fucking awful. Pre and post birth. Took me about 6/7months post to feel half myself again.

Do lots of things you enjoy, take extra support with first born, ensure you have time to yourself and lightly explain to your partner that comments aren't helping at the minute. Use all your coping strategies- bath, music, books or whatever it is you do but keep talking!!