Please God no 😔

[Anxiousmummy123]

Hi all. I was so excited. Tested positive for pregnancy on 14/12/19. On boxing day I started experiencing brownish pink discharge..... it was just on wiping and wasn't a lot tbh. I went to the hospital and they done a pregnancy test which was positive. They also took bloods and showed my levels at 1098 and booked me for another blood test saturday.

My pregnancy symptoms had disappeared
on christmas eve and boxing day ...... today I woke up feeling nauseous and no blood but as the day has gone on I've had more and more and its now bright red. It looks like a normal period but less again only on wiping.

I feel really scared and upset. Anyone have any advice? I don't have any pain as of yet but I have quite a bit of blood on wiping its bright red and I have a few drops on the pad.

I am expecting bad news. I'm heartbroken 😔😔 xx

@Lynzp85 I'm very sorry you are experiencing similar to me. I really hope that you and the pregnancy are ok. I'm thinking of you ❤

Update... I finally heard from the hospital at 3pm. My bloods on saturday had dropped to 1091 and they wanted to book a scan to "check"..... however in the meantime I have progressed and still experiencing similar to a full period. My pregnancy symptoms have all disappeared completely. I told the nurse on the phone and said I feel in my heart it's gone.

I write this post with incredible sadness. I haven't stopped crying all day. My husband has been in tears. I had very strong pulsing pains and shortly after something hard had passed onto the pad.... about the size of my palm shaped like a bean.

I have lost all hope and have been spending the day realising I am saying goodbye. My heart is broken. I would of loved him or her (I just felt like it would have been a boy) so much. I loved them from the moment I saw the word "pregnant". It was so early I think around 7 +4 but it hurts so much.

I will confirm after the scan on Thursday which will be absolute torture. Its in the normal scanning maternity wing along with all the pregnant women. I feel like it's dragging out the 1% glimmer of hope I have for a week to be told what I already know. They said it may not be the end but if it is its to confirm and plan my aftercare.

I'm heartbroken. How can something that was with you such a short time hurt so much.

Thank you to you wonderful people. I'm not going to tell anyone whats happened. So I can't tell you the value of seeing all your messages of support ❤. X

I'm so sorry, OP. I've been quietly following this thread and my heart is breaking for you. I hope you can have some closure after your scan and begin healing 💜

I am so so sorry. Please take care of yourself.

OP I'm so so sorry to hear about this. I had a MC in 2015 at around the same point as you and it floored me completely. It's the what ifs, I'd imagined so much for my little bean. Be kind to yourself. You and your DH need time to grieve what you've lost.

Last and final update in this thread...

😔😔😔😔 had my scan today and all confirmed a full miscarriage. I feel just really numb and angry. I knew the outcome before I went for the scan. The woman was lovely and gave me a little cuddle.

My only solace is that my body did what it needed to and I don't need any medical intervention.

Just feeling so empty and sad. I would have loved that baby with my whole self. I would have tried my best to be the best for them.

It's over. It was so short 😔 but i loved them for every moment they were there.

Thank you to you amazing ladies for supporting me on this journey. Your kind words and hopes and thoughts genuinely did help.

Xxxx

Massive virtual cuddle your way OP.

I cannot express enough how sorry I am although that won't yet take away how you're feeling.
I hope that in time you will be able to grieve how you need to and please never blame yourself. Take time for yourself and for self care. Wish you all the best ❤️

I'm very sorry to read this. Take time to grieve and recover. Hugs x

So sorry xx

Bless you, OP. You have written about it so sadly and beautifully. I’m so sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry about your loss @Anxiousmummy123. This is such a painful experience.

Look after yourself and take time to grieve xxx

At least it,s over. I am miscarried in November and now having to have a la op to remove remain. (TRied the natural and chemical approach. ) It,s V frustrating.

I am so sorry to hear this news @Anxiousmummy123 I’m absolutely heartbroken for you and your husband!
Please take care of yourself and take all the time you need 😢

My heart goes out to you.

M/C is so painful on so many levels.

I found the passing of the tissue & embryo so distressing.

I used to dread standing up , going for a wee & generally moving about because of the size of the clots.

I felt nauseous & cried through day & night.

We were grieving for the future we thought we had and i wanted to (and did) shut out the world because it was something that only my DH & I could do on our own.

Your hormones will take a few months to settle... but this pain will pass . I promise you.

What you are going through is a trauma, so you are going to needto be very gentle on yourself emotionally & physically for a while

I am so sorry. I hope that you recover quickly and that the next one sticks.

Oh bless you.

Sending love and light and hope.

I'm so so sorry. It's not fair.

I’m so Incredibly and deeply sorry 💐

Thank you so much. Your kind words really have given me some comfort. Thank you all for being so lovely and listening. Xx

So sorry for your loss. As a recurrent miscarriage sufferer I understand the emotional impact and it hurts so much. Be kind to yourself x