Can’t stop crying

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Don’t really know where to start. I’m 35 weeks pregnant (second baby), have had a crap pregnancy, SPD, nausea and vomiting from week 5 and still going despite being on 2 different anti emetics which sometimes work for a few days then seem to stop working. Baby is measuring huge so having extra monitoring/scans/have had GTT etc. Have protein in urine the last few checks but midwife doesn’t know why. Have been told it’s unlikely I’ll get the chance to give birth at the MLU because of my age (40 this month), predicted huge baby (last one was estimated 10lbs but ended up 8lb 3) and previous PPH (after induction and forceps). I have an amazing 2 year old who I have no patience with and keep snapping at and then feel awful and to top it off I now have a cough that means I’ve had 3 hrs sleep since Friday and feel like utter shit. Just to make things worse my antidepressants have run out (drs keep messing up prescription so haven’t been able to get them).

Husband is trying and great with our daughter but he doesn’t get it. I just can’t stop crying. I know I don’t have a choice but I can’t see how I’m going to last another 5+ weeks of this. I’m worried about the birth, the recovery (episiotomy and tear last time that didn’t heal properly) and dreading having 2 children to look after. I love this baby and she is wanted but I just don’t see how I’m going to cope.

Not really sure what I was hoping to get from this, just don’t know what to do.

Sorry, that’s really long.

So sorry to hear you are feeling this way. It really sounds like you are dealing with a lot. Is there anything that might help with the sleep? Steam/humidifier or something to soothe the cough? If the sleep is a little better, you might find some extra energy for dealing with everything else that's going on.

Awe ur doing ur best and when baby comes u will start to feel normal again. I'm only 23 weeks with baby no number have bad SPD and still feel sick feel like a misery guts all the time but it doesn't last forever. Plus labour they are all different might be a lot easier this time. If u didn't do it last time Google perineal massage not sure if that's the correct spelling but mean to prevent tears etc as it helps prepare area for birth. Hope you feel better soon hugs x

Thank you. I think you're right, getting some more sleep would help. I've tried everything but hopefully it should start to improve soon. Just bad timing I guess.

I did do perineal massage last pregnancy but haven't bothered this time. I don't think anything would have helped in the end last time. I think I'm so torn between desperately wanting this pregnancy to end but being terrified of another induction that ends like the last one.

Thank you for your kind words, as you say this won't last forever.

Just seen as well about the antidepressants bit. Have you got community midwives u can phone? They should be able to get it sorted. If my doctor did that the midwives would be like bulls as they know how important mental health is to mum and baby