IVF pregnancy anxiety

[Maggie272]

I'm pregnant, 12dp5dt. we've been trying all year. MFI and I'm perfect. 2 chemical pregnancies. Mental state not great after the hormones. Terrified.

Everything I ate today (a little spicy, an extra serving of veggie chilli), everything I drank, my vitamins - are they going to cause a miscarriage? I'm the healthiest person I know, just cos healthy is comfy.

This morning I had myself convinced that I accidentally took my estrogen twice. I was in bits. I'm imagining the embryo growing two heads. My husband told me that I definitely only took it once, because he always puts it back in the medicine cupboard (I tend to leave things lying around after I use them). I guess if I ever did make a mistake like that it would be unlikely to cause any harm.

I should be so happy and i'm a nervous wreck.

Any other IVF mums out there feel like this?

Love
Maggie

I've been exactly the same I once was so tired I forgot to put the pessaries in and was in a blind panic but weve just has another scan at 22 weeks and he is perfectly healthy 😊 I still worry about every twinge and pain you're not on your own xx

Thank you for sharing @Laurapb88 I guess IVF gals are on so many meds that sometimes things go awry. Congratulations to you! Hope you are feeling well x

13dp5dt and got my BFP yesterday - hi ladies!

After one failed cycle and one chemical pregnancy, I’m really on edge and can’t really relax. Scan is booked for 3rd of Jan and I can’t wait.
I just want to see that everything is in the right place.
So good to see other people in the same boat!

I’m an ivf mum to be. I get it. The anxiety is awful. I don’t think a double dose of estrogen will make baby grow two heads!

I used the mantra of ‘today I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise’ for at least the first 15 weeks of my pregnancy. I have finally started to calm down a little at 25 weeks. I hope your anxiety calms soon but please seek help from the midwife and/or clinic in ways of managing your anxiety. It will really help. I also used to headspace app to try and give me some calm before bed to feel more rested. Good luck in your pregnancy

@Kinnney oh lovely! It's like finding your own kind in a sea of natural pregnancies : ) My scan is Jan 2nd - I'm 12dp5dt! And they said I am 4+2 today..which is a relief and confusing. I was so delighted that a third of the first trimester was over! I was feeling quesy today - not from nerves but was really off my food - it made my mother's day : )
Wishing you all the best xxx

@Whatelsecouldibecalled i love your name!

and congratulations! yes, you get it too...there have been so many ups and downs. thank you for the reassurance about the estrogen...i don't even think I did double dose, but look, what can i do now...yes, i meditate and do yoga (although taking a break for now). It's very hard to get off the IVF rollercoaster...
wishing you all the best, and thank you very much for your kind reply!
M x

Hi Maggie :)
Today is my official test day (even though I’ve been doing stealthy tests for the past few days) so I had to ring the clinic with the results. It’s such a relief to be past that hurdle but I’m just so aware that we were only a few days past this point last time when our chemical pregnancy was confirmed so I’m trying to keep a level head.

How are you feeling? Any symptoms other than your nausea? (I’ve been having waves of it too!)

oh @Kinnney that is great! Today was my otd too (well today/tomorrow)! My chemicals always happened day 8 - 10...so yeah i'm only a little bit past that, but no spotting, and that happened with the chemicals.

i have waves of dizziness, sore boobs, and the nausea and that's about it! The dizziness could be the progesterone (I'm on shots), but I didnt have it until a couple of days after my transfer, so I think it's the hcg.
What about you? When do you tell your family?

The progesterone is awful, isn’t it? I’m on pessaries, they’re the worst. I’m having some cramping which the clinic is putting down to progesterone.

I had one small “bleed” (pinkish kind of stuff for about an hour) on Sunday which sent me into an absolute tailspin but the clinic put it down to the progesterone applicators causing irritation. Haven’t had anything like that since and the tests have been getting progressively darker! I’ve become a bit of a testing addict, if I don’t do one every morning I feel a bit panicky. I’m sure that will pass though once I’ve settled into it a bit more.

My symptoms are mainly sore boobs and an achy lower back, and occasional nausea. Nothing too horrendous!

We’ve only told my mum so far, we’re planning on keeping it to ourselves until the scan at least. The last time we were so excited and told my whole family only to have to tell them that it hadn’t worked out a few days later. So thinking its best to wait a while this time.

@Kinnney I was on the pessaries for my last transfer...they are tough going... I had cramps and low back pain but that has settled down.

Now that you are at this stage it might help to test maybe every other day. I tested every day for the last one, and this time I wanted to focus more on what it all felt like, and I talked to the embryo, told it that it was doing a good job. I wrote it a letter the night before the transfer! It sounds crazy, but it's caused less anxiety this time around - if you can imagine it...i'm still going around like a mad woman : )

Maggie, that’s such a lovely idea to write a letter before transfer!

I think I will move to testing every other day, it just makes me feel like I have some control over the situation, if that makes sense?

of course it does! I had three iuis, one transfer before this...I almost have shares in FRER!

Hi ladies, I hope you don't mind me bothering you with this question - I accidentally stored my progesterone oil in a very very cold room for two nights - we were having work done on the house and the windows were open. The bag with the oil and needles was kept in a drawer but it was very cold... the oil is supposed to be stored at room temp. I just wonder if you ever had any issues like this, or if you know whether this renders the oil ineffective?

I think warm is worse than cold but maybe call your clinic to check? One of the nurses advised me to pop the vial into my bra for a few minutes before injecting to warm it up a bit.

Good luck with everything. I was so anxious for the first trimester but I’ve found it gets much easier as I go along

I wouldn’t worry too much Maggie but call the clinic just in case. Like Carbis, I think the main issue is with it getting too warm.

Hope you’re doing well! I’ve been so busy getting ready to fly to my family for Christmas today, it’s definitely taken my mind off the wait for the scan.

Thank you girls, I'm so worried. No answer from the clinic but happened to have my gynecologist s number! Hope it wasn't too cheeky to text him. Just don't want to loose this xxx

@Kinnney it would actually be so much easier to be pessaries...do you find them good?

I find them okay - messy but okay! Although I don’t have anything to compare them to, I’ve only ever been on pessaries with all of my cycles.