Ok so this is a bit of a long one so bear with me.
My OH and I have been trying for our first for around 18 months. We went for tests and turns out due to surgery he had when he was young, we had a very low chance of conceiving naturally. We had been put on the waiting list for IVF, specifically ICSI and were not so patiently waiting our turn.
Well, because I was off all contraception anyway and we were told the chances were very slim, we kinda just kept doing what you do and didn't think about it.
Fast forward to last week and I started feeling quite nauseous so I did a test which came back positive! It said 3+ weeks so I'm not entirely sure my due date but we're figuring August September.
Now this is where is gets awkward. My sister is getting married in August and I'm chief bridesmaid. I've already told her and she says she's over the moon for us, but I can't help but feel incredibly guilty. Christmas is coming up and it's an emotional time for our family due to the loss of a loved one a few years ago, and she says she's just feeling a bit down. My anxiety has been off the charts the last few weeks and I'm overthinking EVERYTHING, so maybe it's other things, but I can't help worry that it's because of me.
I don't really know what I'm asking here, I'm just looking for a bit of reassurance that everything's going to be ok. I've been so excited about the wedding and being pregnant, and I feel like I can't fully be excited about either.