This subject has been done to death and I'm aware no-one can give me an answer I just thought it would be helpful to get my feelings down on in writing and maybe read some unbiased opinions.
I'm 28, DH is 35 and we have DD5 (and a half) and DD2 (and a half) [sorry for the halves but it seems relevant and DD2 is nearer 3]
DH is starting a new job with an increased salary and increased hours next month. He will be out of the house all day and most night 5/7 days a week minimum. Pay is 32k ish before bonus.
I work from home having started my own business last year to be able to be around more for the girls. Took a paycut from about 18k to 15 but don't work many hours and is flexible.
We have a manageable mortgage on a 3 bed house in a village that we love not in the UK.
We were both totally decided that we were having no more children. Our home dynamic at the moment is really good, our time for eachother and the girls, finances etc. We have sold good as new prams, cots etc.
And suddenly, just at DD2 has finally started sleeping 12h through every night in her own bed... my hormones are asking me for another baby
I think I'm nuts, can still remember two years of sleep deprivation, of never having time to do anything, of giving myself over completely to childcare and breast feeding etc.
But the idea has lodged itself firmly in my head. Names keeping popping in, I find myself here on the pregnancy and TTC boards, thinking about how we would redistribute the bedrooms as one is currently my office...
If we were to have another, I wouldn't want to wait. We wanted a small age gap between DDs so as not to get too far out of the "fog" and then find ourselves back in it again for years. If I were to get pregnant tomorrow there would still be over 3 1/2 years between the two youngest which is quite a big gap for me...
We sold all the baby clothes! We are just managing to take small few days at a time holidays as a family..
I'm mad aren't I? Anyone with experience here to talk me around? My SIL said I need to imagine how life will be when we're out of the trenches, years 3 to adulthood as they last so much longer and are so much more important for family dynamic, even though the first are scariest, and that made me want another even more... help??