Sick and tired

[lilyj13]

So I tried for a baby for 5 months and was so over the moon when we found out that we was expecting, my 3rd baby and I just couldn't wait!
I new I struggled with hyperemisis in both my pregnancies but I had a feeling this time it was going to be ok! Well 6 weeks in I felt the worst I have ever felt not if mums reading this haven't had hyperemisis there is just no point in reading any further. I mean it was just insane. I was working as well which I found impossible. I was so scared losing my job.
I was sick must have been 200 times a day, no food no drink, couldn't move from my bed, was insane, I chose to have an abortion and I couldn't wait. What a relief
Few days after guilt guilt guilt kicked in tears sadness seeing other pregnant women I hated myself for what I had done!
I could have done more maybe, I should have learnt from my previous pregnancies.
I want to try for another one later on but I would fight it every tooth and nail. But I'm scared, do I deserve it? I ask myself all the time why do I get it so bad, I mean people tell me they have had hyperemisis but they could eat and work just be sick all the time,
I actually think hold on eating and working would be my dream even having hyperemisis but I seem to have it severe like insane I was on cancer treatment tablets for sickness that didn't tooth the sides.
Anyway anyone out there that could shed some light or advice anything would be so nice
Thank you x

Not hyperemesis but terrible pregnancy (also 3rd) and know a few people with hyperemesis.
You sound like me when it's all too much. I have no advice but please, please, just stop thinking, stop expecting yourself to be ok. You've just been through a very very lot. Give yourself time, possibly some counselling/therapy for your loss and the loss of your dream, and try to sleep.

Thank you, it's so hard. I'm so jealous of all these women that have nice pregnancy's me hardly know sickness. I just want 1 pregnancy that I won't have hyperemeris with.
I'm broody all the time and i struggle so much that I got rid of one

In the south how much deposit do you need to buy your house, I bought when I was 18 now renting which is crazy money! I live in Surrey just needing a heads up really

@likyj13 I totally here you. From week 5 I couldn't keep even water down I was throwing up so much. Had to guit my job. Literally lived at the hospital was there like every day for fluids and medication for the first 4 months. Got to the state they put me on steroids and blood clot injections just to try to stop the vomiting as I was losing weight so fast.
I'm now in month 6 and still on strong medication but finally not vomiting but it's been a really tough time and plenty of times I wanted to give up and quit.
Please dont feel guilty. People who haven't been through it dont understand how hard it is. There was so way I could hold a job down or even function. Please dont be hard on yourself hun.

I'm a childminder so I can't be off sick all the time. It's so difficult. I'm worried I will lose all the children.
Both I was i was in and out of hospital, both girls now 10 and 6 but wow was that bad. I think girls really do suffer but I do know some people that's suffered with boys also.
I wish I just went to the hospital, my husband has been so supportive he said we could try again when the time is right

@lilyj13 oh I see. Gosh that is hard. I'm glad you have a supportive husband and hope you can have another baby soon. There is a hyperemesis support page that has been a life saver for me these past months you should join for help and support .
This is my first pregnancy after I had a miscarriage and I'm having a little boy.

Congratulations I always wanted a boy, but my girls are amazing.
When is your due date?
I have a hyperemisis councillor and loads of paperwork just Incase I decide to have another, even if I was sick a million times a day it would be fine it's the nausea, the strange taste in my house, the pain of throwing up all the time it's crazy, but it's everywhere now

I really wanted a girl but I'm happy for a boy too. I. Due April 1st!
The gp's I've seen have been rubbish but my local hospital have been life savers.
The nausea has been the absolute worst! Just day and night with no relief and just the constant vomiting. I'm so glad the meds I've got are finally working after 18 weeks of hospital and daily home visits in the end to keep me out of hospital on IV meds and I'm not throwing up anymore at nearly 24 weeks thank goodness but not holding my breath.
I haven't got a hyperemesis counsellor but i feel I'm doing ok at.. My husband wants 4 kids but I'm not sure i can do this 3 more times but who knows. As soon as i hold my baby that may all change.

It's so strange because when you give birth, it all just disappears, it's unbelievable. I had my daughter 10 years ago and hypermisis wasn't even a thing really, I had no drugs at all, just in hospital all the time went to 6.5 stone was awful,
I'm glad your feeling better and hope it continues for you,
I would have been due April 11Th
My hospital St. Peter's were amazing too

I’m on my second HG pregnancy & this second one is so much worse! I’ve heard it’s quite common for it to get worse in subsequent pregnancies. I agree, the relentless nausea is just horrific. It’s soul destroying & sucks any joy out of pregnancy.

Have you discussed the different medication options with your GP? My first pregnancy, I coped ok on an average dose of ondansetron but this time, I’ve needed a combination of drugs. I’ve had to up my ondansetron significantly & add a high dose of Metaclopromide as well. I also take omeprazole for the horrific acid reflux that comes with it all. Together, these went a long way to stopping the excessive vomiting. Sadly, nothing has an impact on the nausea except time for me. By 16 weeks, it reduced a tad. By 20 weeks, I was back up & functioning. Now at 26 weeks, I’m back at work normal hours & can get out & about with my daughter for a couple hours. I still find life pretty tough going, I have days of despair where I can’t deal with having another 3 months of feeling so shit but generally, I’m relatively human.

There is also the option of steroids for very extreme cases which it sounds like you might be. There is an interesting case study here that may be of interest & may be helpful:

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4989783/

Honestly, I’m my darkest moments this pregnancy I debated termination. I wasn’t convinced I could do it. But getting on the right combination of drugs for me was the game changer. Yep, I felt like still felt like death & was signed off work for 10 weeks but only vomiting a couple times a day & being able to get food & water in me meant I was able to push through.

I’d say if you do want another, get good medical support in place first.

Lots of love

I haven't discussed anything with my doctor, I'm going to make an appointment but I alway think they just don't understand so they won't help me as much as I want them too!
I'm glad you are getting through it, super brave, we should win awards for this.
I can't believe it's not out there more, people need to get on this and see what the cause is! How can people have amazing pregnancies and not be sick yet we struggle so badly it reins it's all!
When I had my first daughter I couldn't hold her straight away for about 10 mins as I was drained exhausted and to be honest I felt like she was at fault but of course I loved her straight away and that all went away after holding her. I couldn't breast feed either because I just couldn't do it!
I just hope in time we can at least have a reason why it happens and what causes it xx