Lacking support/feeling alone/depressed

[picses]

I'm new to this and feel pretty pathetic for turning to Internet forums but I guess that's the reality when you don't have a single soul to turn to in your everyday life.

So i'm 25 weeks pregnant with my second child with my partner of 3 years, my first is 4. I've pretty much been pushing all the way through with the most positive attitude, despite having HG & a housing hiccup, I've found myself a flat. I've lost a very close grandparent over a month ago too.. as well as finding out I have a low lying placenta which is frightening, alongside possible preeclampsia as I had it with my first so I've been on aspirin.

Above all this I've been pretty chill, I've felt very grateful. But things are beginning to get difficult. I don't really have a friend that I talk to or see on a regular basis as I did when I was younger. My family is there but only to a particular degree. And my partner has been helpful most of the time but I can feel him slipping away now to the point I feel i'm going to end up having this baby alone. Again. I feel pretty stuck.
Not really a question but would just be nice to talk to someone

Hi @picses, sorry you're feeling like this. I think pregnancy can be quite lonely because absolutely no-one other than you really knows exactly what you are going through! Internet forums are great as you can at least voice any mad notion that comes into your head completely anonymously :)

I know you didn't ask for advice, but if you are feeling really low it might be worth talking to your mid wife to see what support is available, medical or otherwise? Maybe voicing your concerns to your partner might be helpful aswell. Sometimes, I think things seem worse when you are dealing with pregnancy hormones (that's my excuse anyway!).

Hey @LH1987, thank you for responding!

I think that's why I've taken some comfort turning to Mumsnet, I've been reading posts endlessly for months.

The advice is welcome I really appreciate it; i'm warming to the idea of mentioning it at my next appointment as the blues are gradually growing on me each day and it's not a feeling i'd like to live with long term!

Speaking to my partner is like speaking to a brick wall, as far as this is concerned. I say this because I've tried to let him know how I feel on numerous occasions lately and it's going through one ear out the other. I've tried in many ways to voice my worries to him. He's playing a big part in my worries though, he's barely ever around me I just feel like a chore to him now!
Guess it could definitely be the hormones but when someone physically can't make time for you it puts you down big time

Its horrible to feel not appreciated and that your partner isn't there for you! While hormones are probably making you less resilient and able to deal with it, its still not acceptable. You are going through a lot right now, some of it is chemical which will be making you feel worse and some of it is your personal situation.

Definitely, speak to the midwife. They will have heard it all before from pregnant women feeling even lower and needing more help. They will be able to advise and refer and if nothing else just articulating to an actual person face to face who will listen will no doubt make you feel better.

@LH1987 that's exactly what I keep on telling myself, it's most definitely hormones but then it's definitely partly non-hormonal at all and totally valid! It's exhausting honestly lol.

I will probably take your advice and mention the feelings I've been having to my midwife. I think it's more a worry of being looked at as if your not coping when that's not the case, just feeling low.

Thank you so much for the concern and advice!