Firstly I'm incredibly sorry if this thread upsets anyone, I also want to say I'm very grateful to be having a baby and don't want to cause them any harm.
I'm 41 weeks pregnant, suffering with pgp, carpal tunnel... the lot. I'm in agony and have been since 16 weeks, been signed off work since 28 weeks and essentially have been isolated at home since then.
I've had 3 weeks of daily false labour, no dilation or effacement, and I'm just exhausted, miserable and quite honestly have thought about ending it. I have absolutely no end in sight with this pregnancy, my midwife has shut me down every time I've tried talking to her about how miserable I feel and how much pain I'm in, so I don't feel like I can even try and speak to her again about it.
I've cried every day for weeks, I'm so lonely and so tired, I sleep about 2.5 hours a night (broken into 15-20 min bursts) and spend my days crying at my bump because I just won't go into labour. I've tried all the usual tricks to no avail, I've tried keeping busy to distract myself but it's not working. I've been fantasising about throwing myself down the stairs because then my baby would have to be born. I wouldn't actually do it, but I can't help the thoughts.
I don't really know if any of this is making sense, I just don't know what to do or who to turn to.