Hi everyone,
I'm 22 weeks pregnant with twins, and have had moderate anxiety all my life. When I got pregnant I decided that things would need to change and I was determined to be a calmer person. I am terrible for googling things and focusing on the worst case scenario, so I decided I would put my faith in the professionals and not go down any rabbit holes about the risks etc... just go with what information I am given. I've also been going for CBT.
Well the other day someone told me I should be on aspirin, as I meet two of the risk factors for pre-eclampsia (first time, multiple pregnancy). I asked my midwife and she said yes, the consultant should have prescribed me it. (It would be great if I'd actually met my consultant but that's another story!) Anyway she said she'd put a prescription in for me.
I had a call from my GP yesterday as they were confused about the prescription, and wanted to check how far along I was. They seemed quite concerned that I hadn't been prescribed it already as the benefits will be pretty minimal at this point 
I've been up all night feeling tremendously guilty about all this. If something goes wrong then I will totally blame myself for not doing all my usual research, which would have pointed me towards this weeks ago when something could have been done.
I don't know how worried I need to be about it? Maybe I should ask for some extra monitoring? I know that if I had been on the aspirin then there's still no guarantee that I wouldn't get pre-eclampsia. I just feel so upset with myself and wanted to get it off my chest really. I'm now totally unconvinced that my anxiety was a bad thing 