Feeling depressed tired and not connected to baby

[MommyDD]

I'm 39 weeks tomorrow, had a growth scan yesterday because her weight declined one week then dramatically shot back up. She put on 2 pounds in 2 weeks and is now 8.5 which is making me panick about giving birth to a big baby! I'm tall 5.8 my partner is 5.11 and we aren't particularly big/over weight people. I was underweight when fell pregnant. I've got to get another glucose test as had one 6 weeks ago that came up fine.
I've been so uncomfortable and sore, can feel every lil movement she makes I havent slept well in two weeks sometimes getting as little as 2 hours broken sleep. I'm hating my body. Feel like I'm walking around in a dream. And lately feel so disconnected to my baby where I used to be so excited. Maybe I'm just a bit down and sick of being pregnant. Wanted her to come early but there is no sign of that, she hasnt even dropped yet. I reckon I'm gonna be late to go in labour and she will be even bigger by that point and tear me open! Am so sick of my life lately, I'm sorry if this post annoys people but I dont have another outlet right now.

Hey it's normal to feel like this but you need to get help with your sleep because it's so important for you to rest as much as possible.
Also everyone I know who had 8-9lb babies have had an easier birth than smaller ones so don't worry about that, I've had two births and never torn so there's no reason why it would happen to you either, but even if you did tear the recovery is fine and heals fast.
Could you try and maybe speak to the midwife about all this and see if they can help you?
My DD my first baby was born at 42+6 and I was so emotionally done at this point they just induced me she'd probably still be there now if they hadn't.

The final stretch is hard. It’s so uncomfortable & you are so ready to meet baby and get your body back (as in not have a fairly sizeable baby squashing everything). I assume you’re on maternity now, so just take it easy. Find a good Netflix series or a good book and try loose yourself in it. I found hoovering my house very therapeutic, no idea why but it kept my mind on something and made me feel like I was ‘ready for baby’.

Baby will be whatever size she’ll be. My daughter was 8lbs and I ended up with tears and a cut. One of my NCT friends pushed out a 9lb9oz baby a day later with no tearing at all. Just not to worry, labour isn’t exactly the most fun day of your life but it’s one or two days, you’ll get it done & cope the best way you can.

The sleep- well, it’s good preparation for what’s to come 😂 you’ll be up every couple hours for some time! You get used to it.

Hang in there, it really won’t be long now!

Thank you for your response, I'm seeing midwife today and gonna speak to her see if she can offer some help, but think it's a different lady yet again. God you Poor soul I hope I'm not over 40 weeks but knowing my luck I will be. This is my first and last pregnancy lol, I've had SPD nausea ligament tearing all sorts! Lol xxx

It won't be long now, you're doing great. It's totally normal to feel like that in what can feel like a long slog especially with poor sleep when you can't get comfortable.

In utero baby weights can be so wrong but even if baby seems big it doesn't mean anything. I had a 5lb 9oz baby back in August and still had to have episiotomy and forceps delivery, whereas friends with bigger babies had no trouble at all.

Good luck! It will be over soon and then a whole new saga begins!

I'm 40+3 today, no signs of labour and feel very similar! I want my abdomen back- so uncomfortable! Also dreading how big this baby will be by the time it's out! Good luck, hope this last bit goes quickly for you.

Good luck to you Cegbee!
Seen midwife just now and they said I'm likely to be induced depending how glucose test goes if not they will put in for me to be Induced 7 days after my due date. And said I should contact my CPN because of low mood. Xxx

@MommyDD Good luck x