hi all,
just back from 34 week appointment with my midwife. I had an episode in hospital this week for reduced movements and also a growth scan as it is standard procedure where I live for movement issues. she was found to be a little on the small side in comparison to the previous scan.
the lady I saw at the day unit really was awful - undermined everything the other nurses said, made me feel like I was wasting her time, kept saying she wasnt even sure why they were repeating the growth scan as her size hadnt dropped off 'that much' and was perfectly normal, said the others had given me too much information last time and I should of been left bla bla. anyway come to today my usual midwife very apologetically said she had been given a note from this woman and it said to check I wasnt being abused/my home life as I appeared anxious (it is a well known fact I suffer with anxiety, I've had cbt for it and everything lol) and because I presented wearing trackies (I'm nearly 8 months pregnant they are one of the only things I find comfy atm) and because I'd had a skin breakout that day on my chin (again I do suffer with spots occasionally) that these were all things she was particularly concerned by. I'm actually really quite shocked, not only have I found it very upsetting that she has used my anxiety and the fact I was not dolled up (why would you be when going in for scans/CBT etc.) against me but it has now also made me feel shit in terms of I dont want to go to the hospital again now. mg midwife said I cannot think like that and I must request just to have nothing to do with her and that "between you and me you are not the first person to have issues with her" I was just wondering how to handle this or well I suppose just to have a bit of a rant as I'm quite upset. I've had enough stress in this pregnancy as it is and this on top :/ has made me feel paranoid about my appearance and that my anxiety is something I have put on for affect essentially ah x