This is just a vent really and to see if anyone else is feeling the same way. I'm 23 weeks pregnant with a planned pregnancy and most of the time I couldn't be happier but I've been kind of freaked out by just how intense the mood swings can be...
I know mood swings / hormonal changes are probably amongst the most common pregnancy symptoms but I feel like I'm a complete slave to my emotions and I'm normally quite a rational person. Few examples:
- Most of the time I feel totally loved up about the pregnancy to the point of crying when I even think about seeing my baby for the first time...I mean I've always liked kids but feel completely baby mad at the moment! I went from probably just wanting one child to possibly wanting three!
- For some reason in the evening a dark cloud seems to emerge and this loved up feeling is replaced by anxiety and feeling quite overwhelmed about the whole thing...not every night but a few times a week I have an 'oh s**t' moment about the birth, if I'll be a good mother, if partner will be a good dad, all the things I need to do on the house etc. It comes out of no-where but I can feel very, very down or anxious but typically its gone by morning and I'm fine
- Hysterical laughter....ok this is a new one but actually made me question my sanity / whether I had any control left! My husband was trying to be 'romantic' ahem...and for some reason I just burst out laughing and couldn't stop. I laughed to the point of tears and not being able to speak and I honestly couldn't tell you what was funny :o
I've also gone from being a very laid back person who is very good at chilling (lazing) about to constantly restless and wanting to organise / clean everything.
Anyway just a rant really but it does freak me out sometimes as I think 'what next?!' I find sometimes the pregnancy feels amazing and I feel elated and others it can feel terrifying, lonely, almost claustrophobic! If anyone can relate to any of this I'd love to hear.