18 weeks pregnant and so tearful and emotional what is wrong with me??

[EmotionalEllie]

I'm 18 weeks pregnant and feel like I'm losing my mind.

At the weekend I was so irritable and miserable with DH. Monday had a terrible day at work and cried all the way home. Then yesterday my 3.5 year old started nursery, had a great day then had a bad fall on the way home and knocked a tooth out. I haven't stopped crying since, questioning everything, feeling like maybe she shouldn't be at nursery after all (even though the fall didn't even happen at nursery). This morning I think I had a panic attack after ai dropped her off (not sure as have never had one before but was being sick, shaking and couldn't breathe).

I don't know what is wrong with me. Someone I know just had terrible news about their pregnancy and I feel so guilty for being so upset about something relatively minor and am trying to get some perspective but it's not working.

Had a midwife appointment this morning and burst into tears so she gave me The Talk about antenatal depression.

Am I depressed or is this just normal pregnancy hormones? I think I remember being emotional last pregnancy but much later than 18 weeks. I just feel like a totally different person, I'm usually really strong and rational and at the moment I'm a total mess.

@EmotionalEllie- It’s so difficult to distinguish between pregnancy hormones and yourself if that makes sense?
I’m quite a worrier anyway so knew pregnancy would be tough but I do feel the pregnancy hormones are playing a big role in how I’m feeling. I’m a lot more tearful and feel I cry at things a lot easier than I normally would.
It’s a first time pregnancy for myself so everything is daunting, worrying and emotional. Do you find you’re putting any pressure on yourself to feel a certain way as that can make things worse? What I mean is do you feel you “should” be happy etc? As that alone can cause low mood as you’re fighting how you actually feel. X

@kate3150 sorry you're having a tough time too. Definitely struggling with thinking I "should" be feeling a certain way. It's been really tough. How many weeks are you?

@EmotionalEllie- Bless you, yeah the “shoulds” really won’t help things. I have accepted that pregnancy just isn’t a happy, blissful time for everyone. It’s exhausting making yourself try to feel that way.
I’m nearly 27 weeks now... like I say it’s been a tough journey. I think I’ll only relax and take a big deep breath when he’s in my arms.... sorry I can’t offer much in the way of advice but you’re definitely not alone... it’s soooooooooo common to have these thoughts ands feelings. X

Well I literally cried all day then went to pick up my DD and she had had a great day

I think pregnancy is kind of amplifying my emotions? So I probably would have felt a bit upset this week anyway but it makes it 100 times worse.