Hi, not sure what I'm expecting but I suppose it would be ice to know I'm not alone and I'm not being a 'drama queen'
I will be 15 weeks tomorrow and I have the most amazing supportive husband who bless him has been doing pretty much everything around the house.
I'm on cyclizine and when I wake up I'm sick, I have about 5/10 mins of feeling ok and then the nausea starts again and gets worse throughout the day. By lunch time my eyes are flickering shut and my concentration is pretty much gone. Start feeling unbearably sick by home time (5pm) and when I get home I get changed into my pjs and all I can do to not be sick is to lie on the sofa and usually fall asleep.
I snack throughout the day so I feel like I'm gaining weight as I can really only manage toast and things like that. Evening meals I haven't really had one since I was 6 weeks, I usually either have toast or occasionally manage a nibble of what hubby cooked for himself but only if it's plain like chicken nuggets or pizza.
I'm just so fed up of struggling. I feel like I feel awful sick and tired all of the time and that's rubbish. Add to that I feel like I can't do my normal day to day things, I'm late to work every day because of my sick timing and after lunch I don't seem to be able to get much done. I can't even manage a trip to the supermarket let alone do the cooking etc. I'm studying for a masters in my own time which I'm now falling behind with and feel like I also can't do things I want to do like go and see friends and family, I dread going out or making plans as I know I'm going to feel awful.
All of this is just getting me down and I keep having moments of just crying. I know there are people suffering with worse symptoms and people managing to get through the day with other children so not only do I feel rubbish and upset and annoyed that I can't do anything I also feel like I'm failing in a way that others seem to be coping and I'm really not. (My husband keeps telling me I am as I haven't called in sick to work etc but that doesn't make me feel any less useless atm. Really thought at 12 weeks I'd feel better but I feel worse 😭
Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this didn't mean to ramble but I just needed to let it out. I'm so happy and excited to be pregnant but I just can't stop feeling like this 🙁