Guilty Emotions..

[Tashy777]

I’m only nearly 5 weeks pregnant and I’m already starting to debate if I’m doing the right thing.. me and my partner had planned to try for a baby, I had purposely come off my contraception but fell pregnant really quickly. When I found out I was ecstatic, however, now I’m really starting to feel like I wish I wasn’t pregnant 😓 I feel so guilty for thinking/feeling this way and was wondering if it’s just totally normal? I’m so tired and struggling with nausea and I’m totally on edge. A spider on my tea towel has just made me have a total mental breakdown! I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing 😓 can someone please tell me this is normal or not? I’m enjoying it just being me and my partner and worrying that the baby won’t sleep and I feel like I’m just over thinking the whole thing into convincing myself I don’t want this anymore, please help 😭

It will pass, hang in there. I felt a bit like you - with all the nausea and tiredness I just really didn’t feel myself during the first few weeks and didn’t like it - but you will get used to it and hopefully when you feel better in your second trimester (the best time!) you will start to feel more excited and looking forward to what’s ahead. By all means speak to your midwife if you’re feeling anxious and concerned.

Yeah I don’t feel myself at all.. I struggle with anxiety and slight depression anyway and think maybe it’s being enhanced now that I’m pregnant. I have my first midwife appointment a week tomorrow - I will definitely mention it to her and see what she says. It doesn’t help that work have been really unsupportive and I have quite a stressful job.. I think everything is just getting on top of me and wanted some sort of clarity it’s normal to feel the way I am.. thank you x

I think it’s definitely normal - no one is going to feel great when they’re constantly nauseous, tired and hormones are going through the roof, your body suddenly feels like it’s not your own anymore and it definitely takes some getting used to - throw in some anxiety and depression, it’s even more tough. Don’t feel guilty about how you’re feeling. For me the first trimester was definitely the worst - you’re feeling like shit and the good thing your supposed to get at the end of it is still months away! And lots of people don’t know so can’t help - it’s when you’re showing and feeling your best that people are considerate and helpful! I hope you feel better soon OP and definitely talk about this to your midwife next week