35 weeks. Feeling blue.

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Second time round for me. This is a very wanted baby as had 4 mcs since my first. On mat leave now so should be enjoying putting my feet up and getting excited, like I did last time, but just cant. I'm exhausted.

Packed my hospital bag this morning. Remember how fun it was last time choosing first photo outfits and thinking through my birth plan. This time I cant get excited throwing in huge black knickers and maternity pads! I need to sort through baby clothes but I dont have the energy.

I'm not too worried about the birth but logistically it's all a bit more complicated than last time which is getting me down. The baby is due the day my dc starts school and my dh works further from home. Wish I felt just a bit more excited.

Anyone else third trimester and feeling a bit blue?

Yes! Oddly enough I had this too last week at 35 weeks. Now 36 weeks and it's my first day of maternity leave, toddler is in nursery and I've gone out and (finally) bought some things to pack in my hospital bag.

I think maybe it's less exciting this time round because, quite frankly, we know the truth! I had such an idealised notion of motherhood the first time round and now i know along with the squishy newborn comes bleeding, leaky boobs, exhaustion, hormonal crashes, endless nappy changes...

I also have half my brain taken up with worrying/thinking about my other child. Like you, wondering who will will take him when the time comes, when exactly it's all going to kick off etc.

My cure was go for a long swim, have a good think about it all and make a definitive to-do list. I divided things into manageable chunks and am feeling more able to crack on with it. I also decided to treat myself to little things each week while I am on mat leave. Today I am having a pedicure. My feet have been attacked with what looked and felt like a cheese grater and are now an intergalactic purple sparkly delight.

Good luck. Nearly there.

Thanks. I think I felt weirdly more in control last time. I felt like the NCT had prepared me for everything This time I know it may not go as planned!

Also I was probably enjoying the novelty of being off work. Not really the same with a child at home!