Hiya, I'm a 21 year old who's suffered with depression for a very long time.. I got sectioned end of last year and got help and was a lot better because I finally knew what was wrong. I suffer from unstable emotional personality disorder. When I found out I was pregnant I was over the moon (until dad left) which made me feel crap. But I lifted myself up and thought I don't need a man to raise a child.
But now I am 5 months and in the last couple of weeks I have been feeling so crap about myself, and if I will be a good mum, if I can afford it with only working 23hrs a week. And so much more has started to worry me. And tonight it hit me the most and a lot and I started to look at adoption, because I feel it would be better for my baby. But at the same time I know it will destroy me on the inside and my family.
I'm just not sure what to do really or how to cope and how to feel or even why I feel this way. I know not having friends impacts me a lot, and people who give me judgemental looks and comments doesn't help either. I just want to be able to feel good about myself but it's so hard. I was just wondering if anyone else felt this way or feel this way. And how they coped and got through it