So, without droning on too much I have a 6 year old son already with a previous partner and have been in a new relationship for the past 4 years. We found out we were having a baby in December and there were mixed feelings but we decided to go ahead after a lot of talking.
Fast forward to now, me and my partner have seperated due to his massively poor life choices. For example. He would say he was popping to the shop and not come back for hours, sometimes days at a time. He has never bought our baby a thing, I have paid for everything, the deal was he would decorate the house and I would buy baby things but he did one room and flaked. He has clearly stated he cannot bond with the baby and doesn't want to acknowledge her. I have supported him and asked him to support me in other ways and reassured him that the bond would be more natural after LO is born.
He then started to change, but soon Slipped back into dissapearing and ignoring me.
Yesterday was the final straw, I had a serious mental breakdown and I begged him to come home to me just so I wasn't alone as I have been for some time now. He huffed and puffed and I hung up the phone, I then saw him with his friend, he wouldn't answer my calls and text me saying he wasn't going to leave his friend for me.
What do I do?! I have no birthing partner, my mum will be having my boy when I have baby, I really do have no friends and I don't even have someone to watch my dog. I feel like when the time comes the dad is going to be nowhere to be found and this terrifies me.
I am booked in the a c section but I'm thinking if natural this will be easier to deal with by myself. How can I make him realise this is the biggest and best thing to happen to him and I NEED his support. Since being treated this way I now suffer with severe depression and anxiety and I hate to admit it but although I love my baby, I feel like I made a huge mistake and I don't know if I will cope now.
I have to add that I have been so so supportive to my partner I've encouraged nights out and always had his back. I've even lied to people and said he's always been there for me when infact the longest he's consistently looked after me is a week.
I don't know why I've written this other than to air what is going on, I have no one to talk other than one friend and my mum.