Medical Management

[CurlyBlondie]

A bit fed up so thought I'd see if there was anyone in a similar position.

I found out 11 days ago (at 8 weeks) that my baby was not developing. I had been having early scans as was under the fertility services. The scan previous to this I was told she could see a flicker of a heartbeat which we now know to be utter rubbish as it wasn't possible. False hope!

Prior to getting pregnant I was advised that we may have to use donor eggs which I was devastated about so obviously overjoyed when I had a positive pregnancy test.

I went into hospital on Friday for medical management of the miscarriage. I was expecting bad period pains but actually had the worst pain of my life and ended up on morphine and entonox!! (Sorry to those that are about to go through this and I understand it isn't this bad for everyone).

I came home on Saturday afternoon after my horrendous experience and was told by the doc to take a pregnancy test after 2 weeks and if positive, I will need to go back and do it all again!!!

I am now at home feeling utterly fed up and feeling pretty alone. My husband seems to not be affected by it. He is quite a pessimistic person and was almost expecting me to miscarry so no surprise for him.

I guess I was concentrating so much on wanting the procedure over that now it has dawned on me that I won't be having the baby that I have wanted for so long. I have absolutely no energy to do anything and just want to hide away.

Medical management was the worst decision I ever personally made. I haemorrhaged and almost died, it was utterly gruesome as well. I did not expect that level of pain or that amount of blood, the clots were horrendous. I’d always implore anyone who has had a missed miscarriage to opt for the surgical route. It’s so much easier and makes the whole horrible experience that bit less traumatic.

I’m very sorry for your loss , I had two missed miscarriages in a row so understand your pain. I think it’s difficult for some men to fully get to grips with it, my DP didn’t really understand the emotional pain either. They didn’t carry the baby so didn’t have the same level of attachment. Be kind to yourself .