I hate being pregnant and I've got six weeks left

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I know I'm being stupid because lots of women would kill to be pregnant and I am so lucky to be having a baby. But I can't help hating nearly every second.

I've been having awful braxton Hicks contractions for weeks now - doubled over in pain, can't move, can't talk kind of awful.

I've got horrible spd and so was forced to take maternity leave at 32 weeks.

I've had two infections and been observed at hospital for a possible third.

And now I'm about to be tested for obstetric cholestasis due to lots of itching on my hands and feet as well as severe itching. I've also got bright yellow Diarrhea and stupid me googled it and it shows that can be a symptom so I'm worrying even more.

I'm being stupid because apart from constant pain, illnesses, and depression I've had an easy pregnancy. Baby seems to be healthy every time we're seen, and that's the main thing. I am really grateful that despite all of my issues she seems to be fine. But by god I hate pregnancy.

I just need to rant I think. I'm so fed up. I know that's horrible and that there might be women reading this who want to experience all of this just for a baby. I was like that this time last year after a loss too. But I'm not coping with it at all

Heyyy! ME TOO. Only I'm a little bit jealous as I think you must be further along than me - I'm due July 15th, so 33+3.

Things I have to moan about:

1. I'm in pain somewhere almost all the time. Currently have awful chest pains

2. it's so hard to get comfy and sleep

3. I'm getting quite anxious and depressed

4. everyone is annoying me

5. I miss wine

6. I'm SHATTERED as I have four DC to look after too

7. my skin has fucked up and I hate it now

8. I feel like I have love handles and miss being a size 8-10

9. I can't eat normally

10. the baby may have growth problems. I don't WANT to be induced. I'm still determined to have a home birth. They're not telling me where to give birth! And breathe.

Probably more...

But yeah. I get it.

I also lost one last year too - right before conceiving this one actually, so technically I've been pregnant since August...

You're doing a great job of growing a baby and you're so nearly there! What do you enjoy - bath, Netflix, new clothes for when you're not pregnant? Treat yourself if you can, and relax.

@Birthdaykake Jesus your comment has made me realise I've been pregnant since December! I've had 4 losses before this sticky & yet I'm only 9 weeks pregnant. No wonder it feels like a lifetime already.

Only 3 days ahead of @BirthdayKake I'm 34 weeks exactly tomorrow! Congratulations on your pregnancy but so sorry to hear you're suffering too. Luckily I don't have any children already so I'm only concentrating on me really but I feel in a way that makes it harder, I'm sat alone all day struggling to get anywhere because of all the pain I'm in and I can't really distract myself. I planned for a home birth but nobody supported me and I became scared to risk it with the hip pain. I hope you get the birth you want though! And I hope baby starts growing as they should!
So sorry for your loss as well. I lost my baby at the end of April last year and conceived in October (around my due date actually) but the symptoms never left so whilst I wasn't carrying a baby I still had all the nausea and heartburn which I think has worsened how I feel.
Thank you @PatrickMerricksGoshawk I am trying to concentrate on how close to the finish line I am now but it's so hard when there's something new every day to worry about/deal with. I'm having baths every day as someone told me they swore they didn't get stretch marks because that's what they did. I resemble a tiger so clearly that's a myth but I've gotten into the habit now (and the warm weather coupled with the pregnancy means I feel the need to wash more). I keep adding clothes to my online baskets which I'm enjoying, and Netflix is my best friend right now (loving Jane the virgin but almost finished 😭).
So sorry for your loss @starflake I hope this pregnancy goes well for you!

I hated being pregnant
8 months of morning sickness
So low on iron I fell asleep in boots
I looked grey all the time
I swelled in places I didn’t know swelled-including my earlobes
Just felt fat
My hair fell out
My nails kept snapping

I also went on to have 6 kids so must have liked something!lol

Oh god the iron. I hate taking the tablets but when I forget by the time it's bedtime the room is spinning and I can't steady myself! Luckily my nails are actually really healthy, I used to be a nail biter but read somewhere pregnancy can strengthen them so thought what a perfect time to stop, and whilst they are delicate after probably 15 years of biting they are stronger than any other time I've tried to stop. I can't imagine doing this six times though, especially the morning sickness so well done @Rainbowknickers !!
Just so I don't put anyone off getting pregnant with this thread I am currently sat in the bath and baby is dancing around which is an amazing feeling and sight (I'd actually only ever dreaded seeing a baby moving inside of me and no other part of pregnancy so for this to be the one bit I love is strange!)

Can I join you being miserable? I'm 35+4 (due June 30th) and have 3 year old twins and home who have gone from being so good to devil children the last few weeks. If one more person tells me i must be finding it super easy this time just having to carry 1 - I will kill them. This pregnancy has been so much harder.

I hate being pregnant. I'm either having the runs or super constipated. The contractions have been coming and going for a week now and bloody hurt. I've not slept in weeks.

I fell 2 weeks ago and damaged my pelvis and can hardly walk through the pain so am literally stuck in the house trying not to go crazy.

Oh god @TrixieFranklin that sounds awful! I can't stand people who make assumptions about others pregnancies, they don't know what's going on and every pregnancy is so different! And I can imagine it being harder to be pregnant and looking after twins than just being pregnant. It won't help but I swear children but twins especially know when a woman is struggling with pregnancy and play up for them more! I worked in a nursery and their behaviour towards me compared to others was horrendous!
Definitely relate to the toileting issues too, I don't think I've had a healthy bowel movement in months. Makes it very hard planning to do anything because I don't know I'm going to need to run to the toilet in 30 seconds or not!
I'm sorry about your fall as well, do you have anyone to help you? It doesn't help you going crazy during the day but I couldn't cope without being able to boss someone around getting me a drink if I'm in too much pain

Yes thank god my husbands around a lot at the moment!!
Eurgh. Where the hell is the pregnancy glow people talk about!? I swear I had a few hot flushes and some sweaty days a few weeks back but surely that's not it!!!!

I went out Saturday night and someone said I looked like I was glowing. My partner helpfully pointed out I was sweating 😠😂 I used to have such clear skin and really could look glowy some days, but with pregnancy came the acne I've avoided for so long! And not satisfying poppy spots, horrible little red bumps all over my face!

Oh god the evening itching has started once again! It's driving me mad, like I'm covered in bugs biting me or something! I just want it all over with 😭

If it helps I had OC and they scheduled me for a 37 week induction as a result (have birth at 35 weeks anyway). They also (alongside more specific drugs) prescribed bog standard piriton and menthol aqueous cream to help the itching so you could try both quite cheaply over the counter and see if they help.

Thank you @GemmeFatale I'll ask the midwife tomorrow what she recommends and then go to the pharmacy (thankfully just down the road so not too far to walk if my hips decide to play up).
Out of curiosity do you think toothpaste on the itchy spots would work just for tonight?

Sorry, we had guests last night so i failed to return. Hope the midwife today helps