Hi, so I am a 25 year old woman and I have always dreamed about being a mum, there is nothing more I want than having my own little child. There's just one thing...I am not allowed to have one. I have autism and I currently live in sheltered accomodation were the carers here will not allow me to get pregnant because I am a "vulnerable" adult and they even say that if I was to get pregnant my baby would be taken from me by social services..and it really makes me want to cry so much. The whole purpose of living here is for them to help us to become independant adults AND persue our dreams and they are stopping me from having what I want the most, a child. Everyday they make me swallow the contraceptive pill (I'm sexually active) and I hate it. Everywhere I go I see a mother pushing her little baby in a pram or a see a pregnant woman and I just wish it was me. And I know how hard it is to raise a child, I experienced my 2 nephews growing up and I saw the tantrums and the endless cries and screams but it still doesn't change my mind. I just want to be a parent and at this moment in time they won't let me (they will only let me get pregnant when I have moved out and I am independant) The trouble is I want a baby now. I can't wait. It feels torture to see a mother and a child and knowing I can't have that now. :(