We really want this baby and I've had a miscarriage and a couple of chemicals so I know how lucky I am that I'm pregnant and that so far it looks like everything is going well despite pretty much constant light bleeding/spotting.
I hate it though! I'm just over 8 weeks and my symptoms aren't even that bad compared to many but it's just so tiresome. I have food aversions and can't smell salad, milk and loads of other innocuous foods that I used to love without feeling ill. I'm so tired and just want to sit in bed all the time and do nothing. It feels like a hangover.
And I'm in such a bad mood. Everything is pissing me off. I hated my job even before this and now I'm finding it so hard to keep it together and not cry and get angry about stupid things. And when people complain to me about their own lives I have just zero empathy. I just want to tell them to shut up because they can easily fix whatever they're complaining about but I can't just get rid of this nausea, tiredness and incessant bleeding. And I know that's selfish and stupid because we all have problems but argh I just feel so irrationally furious about EVERYTHING right now.
I don't even feel like I can really complain about this in real life (or even here) because then karma would be another miscarriage. I'm just so fed up though. The first trimester sucks, I hate my job and we're having renovations done at our house so it's a very unrelaxing place to be. Thanks for letting me moan.