Second miscarriage in a row

[littlemisssunnysideup]

Hi everyone,
I'm meant to be 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant today and I had some lower abdominal pain and light spotting when wiping, went to have bloods and scan done. HCG was only 11 and scan didn't show a sac (even though they said they won't see one this early anyway) but also thankfully didn't show an ectopic. Was asked to come back in 3 days for repeat HCG but with such a low HCG I don't think there is any hope for me. I had a MMC (1st pregnancy) 3 months ago at 9 weeks of a twin pregnancy and needed a D+C. I was so thankful and hopeful when I fell pregnant again this time around but looks like this is going to be another miscarriage. I had only just started to recover emotionally from the first MC and had amped up being healthy and eating well etc. I'm not sure if I have the courage to go through this again. And I also feel terrified to TTC again for the third time later as a third MC in a row would be unthinkable.
Please help..

Didn’t want to read and run. So sorry this has happened to you again. I had a miscarriage 7 weeks ago and am now trying again. I know that when it does happen I am going to be full of anxiety and probably not be able to enjoy. I think I would be like you....... I’m already worrying about it now. Can you be referred on to a miscarriage centre? Not sure which area your in as some places won’t refer until 3rd miscarriage. But you could look into whether your area does this after second one. Your GP should be able to help with that. Keep us updated. There are some good people on here.

I’m so very sorry to read what you are going through. It brings back very raw feelings of my ttc history. I had two miscarriages before having my son and two more before having my daughter. It was a horribly difficult time and more so because of the silence around miscarriage. I haven’t forgotten my lost babies but I am deeply in love every day with the ones I had the courage to keep trying for.

Give yourself time to pause and recover, if this pregnancy turns out to miscarry. Sending lots of love.

Thank you for the support. Sorry for being late to reply. The worst has happened and I've been pretty much curled up in a ball bleeding and cramping. I don't think I will go for the blood test on Monday cos it will only show in black and white what I already know..I've miscarried my wee one and it's all over :( :(