Struggling with First Trimester

[louisehdsn]

Hi all :)

I’m 8+2 today, and finding these first few weeks so hard physically and emotionally. I had a MC last year, and it’s caused me to feel so mixed up about this pregnancy, even though I wanted it so badly. I’m worried all the time that something will go wrong, but also worried about the pregnancy itself and our lives when the baby is here. Is this normal, has anyone else had these fears?

Also I’m struggling physically big time. I’ve got such bad nausea and sickness that I’m off work at the moment and got sent to hospital for bloods and observation on Wednesday. I’ve lost 8lbs in a week from being unable to eat, and one of my passions in life is cooking which I just cannot do at the moment so I’m feeling so down and lost. I’m so exhausted that even going to the shop tires me out and I can barely get off the sofa. I’m nervous about going back to work on Tuesday with how fatigued I feel - I have a high-pressure job, an unsupportive boss, and do a lot of driving for work.

I feel like I’m being a bit pathetic and ungrateful about the whole thing :( but I’m finding this so hard. Does anyone have any advice?

No real advice but just wanted to assure you you’re not alone! I’m 7+3 after 2 miscarriages (before 6 weeks) last year and 15 months total trying. I still have another 5 weeks to get through and I almost feel like it’s too good to be true and waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I’ve been signed off work with morning sickness - I went to the dr on Monday and described basically exactly what you said and I burst into tears and said something along the lines of I couldn’t go on like this anymore...I was prescribed anti sickness tablets and given 2 weeks off!

On the other hand today whilst the sun was beating down on me and I was listening to my summer tunes I panicked thinking how summers from here onwards will never be the same again with a baby/child. I freaked out for a minute and wondered if I was really ready for this. Of course there’s nothing I want more in the world - but if you read a lot of threads on here it’s quite common to go from one emotion to the next!

Have confidence and believe in yourself!