Struggling mentally, early pregnancy

[A1B2C3000]

Hello

First time poster. Recently found out am pregnant, 7 wks. Have suffered from anxiety and depression in past and all attempts to come off pills failed so on a fairly low dose.

OH knew wanted children, me less sure but couldn’t give absolute no I guess. We decided to see what would happen.

Atm I feel numb but awful, really tired, uncomfortable, scared, worried. When we saw doctor I tried to explain and say I was worried about my ability to cope and my mental health. I think I’m showing my warning signs of depression or I’m just get tired. Anyway, she said just keep taking pills and midwife would be in touch and make an app for approx 1 month.

I’m really struggling and very down. I feel awful but also feel like I can’t talk to anyone (apart from
Partner). I suppose I’m posting just for a bit if support really. Sorry for long post. I thought maybe as I actually asked for help there may be some support from the doctor with my head but it seems not to be. I’m struggling with who to talk to and how to get through the next few months with it all and massive workload all while feeling terrible

Your medication dose may need to be adjusted. Mine was raised during pregnancy. If you have a history of mental health problems and are struggling, ask for a referral to the perinatal psychiatric team.

I’m not sure if that’s correct. Wouldn’t midwife say to contact your doctor? Your midwife can’t up your dose surely. I would book another doctors app with a different doctor x

@A1B2C3000 I so feel for you. I have anxiety, depression and intrusive thought OCD....and i do not recieve being pregnant Well! In fact this time (last time ended in missed miscarriage) I waited 10 years to build up the courage to feel that bad again, didnt do a test because i was too anxious (just let nature take its course) and only did it because I'm 38 and felt like it was now or never. And once again, shit hit the fan when i finally went to the dr for a midwife appointment ... crying, panic attacks, feelings of wanting abortion or miscarriage (feeling guilty!), not seeing any positives and waking up in the night sweating. Roll on to my 13 week scan today and I feel fine. Almost happy. And i will take That!

My point being...if i can feel ok. You can x

Hey OP,

Sorry you are feeling this way I have been there and it was terrible.

Can you afford any private counselling? Even just over the phone as this might help with your worries at the moment. Your midwife will be able to help with regards to counselling as they have specialist services if you are pregnant with mental heal issues. Try to stay busy (I know easier said than done when first pregnant) or at least keep your mind busy so you don’t get stuck in your head with worry. Don’t read anything online about mental health and pregnancy as this made me 10000% worse and put the fear of god in me. Just try not to get so stressed and live in the now. This is the advice I would give to myself if I could go back

Thank you for your kind replies. I’m trying to go back to a counsellor I saw previously and I’m just taking it one day at a time at the moment. Your kind messages and how you have got through have helped though, thank you x