Freaking out - early scan in the morning....

[CurlyTwirlyTwos]

I’m a RMC sufferer, this will be my 5th pregnancy .

Most of my mmc are pregnancies which don’t develop past 6-7 weeks and I miscarry at 8-9 weeks.

The last time I had a ‘good’ scan at 6 weeks, the pregnancy went well until 12 weeks where they discovered a fatal congenital disorder and I had TFMR.

This is only a 6 week scan, but I’m still bricking it. I’ve put it in my head it probably won’t work out BUT if they DO find something - how will I manage?

I’m under the fertility unit now, hence the early scan.

My head is all over the place and I’m overthinking

Thought I’d rant on here incoherently instead !

Aww hope all goes well tomorrow,try not to worry every pregnancy is different.its hard not to worry i know, im a born worrier . Let us know how it goes.x

Hope it goes well OP.

Fingers crossed for you OP. I have a friend who had RMCs - 11 over the years and was told to stop for their health and MH as it was all within 5 years. They conceived unexpectedly with no intervention and it went successfully (I won't say exactly smoothly but no major traumas) and when their lovely DS was 3 had another successful pregnancy. Now they are parents of a 6 and nearly 3 year old DS and DD. Miracles can happen. You are right to be cautious emotionally (you know what I mean, sorry that's not very eloquent) but have hope too. Will be thinking of you tomorrow.

Sorry I've not got much experience in this but just wanted to say all the best for tomorrow, hope everything works out for you. Good luck x

Thank you for taking time to respond MNers!

After getting it off my chest, I managed to get to sleep, but I’m now wide awake running different scenarios through my head (again) about it all again - argh!!

I feel like a break from this awful cycle as my MH has taken a battering. I’ve had 10 counselling sessions on the NHS (tried to pursue privately with a different counsellor but it didn’t work out).

However, my gyne/fertility consultant said ‘you must keep going, you are 35 you have no time to waste my dear’

That was word for word !!

No compassion there from the gynae!

What time is the scan? How are you feeling this morning?

Good luck for this morning.

How did it go OP? Hope all is well

Hope you're ok OP. So tough.

My 5th pregnancy was the first successful one. Hope things have been positive today

Hope that your ok today x

Hey thanks for checking in on me. I’m sorry I don’t have good news to share.

Showing a fetal pole but no flickering. I’m 6&5 but measuring 5 weeks.

I’ve had this before so I know where it’s heading. I’ve had a ‘good’ scan at this stage where things went well for a while, but also had two scans which looked exactly like this at this stage, and both ended in medical management.

I feel like I’m never going to get my happy ending (and I know there are plenty) but it really feels like it won’t happen. Tbh - I want to start on anti depressants (I’ve never been on them before) but I feel so so so low.

Everyone seems to get pregnant and stay pregnant at some point apart from me....

I seriously feel for you and I’ve had all the feelings you are having

I’ve had three missed misscarriages , I’ve managed to get to the third trimester this time for some reason ...the only thing that’s been done differently is blood thinners in the beginning and aspirin till full term, as I have a mild blood clot disorder.
Different hosp staff were conflicted if it was linked to mc and said it was a grey area but it’s seemed to of worked.

I’m guessing you’ve had all the testing done? have they suggested trying blood thinners or if this pregnancy isn’t successful do they have any ideas of how to help you?

If you need a break from it all then take it as it is so emotionally and physically draining xxx

So sorry

Aww im so sorry, i was wishing that u would get good news x

I’m pleased things went well in the end @sh13 - hope your baby dust is sprinkled my way in the future! Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy, I really hope I can share that kind on news in the future!

I’ve already had the ‘sticky blood’ test and I came back normal. I’ve even put myself on baby aspirin previously, but no joy. They can’t find anything ‘wrong’ with me - but clearly something is 🤷‍♀️!

It’s silly - even though I expected bad news, I’m still floored. Why me? I don’t know anyone else who has experienced this!

Thank you. I really, really hope it comes your way too

I have a friend who had six misscarriages and for no reason the seventh baby she carried to term. I know hearing that doesn’t make it any easier whilst your going through this rubbish time.

Of course you will still be floored by it as you always have some hope in the back of your mind that the scan will go well. You’ve been through so much ..I went on antidepressants I had a breakdown it all got to much for me , they helped though. Go easy on yourself you need time to heal. Hopefully you have some good support around you? Xx

So sorry Curly

I'm really sorry you're going through this OP. I had six early losses in four years (all around the 6-8 week mark). I had every test under the sun via the NHS and still continue to miscarry. It completely took over my life. After four years of heartbreak we visited Dr Gorgy at the London Fertility Academy. He completed the Chicago blood tests and then came up with a treatment plan. 10 months later we had our first daughter and then nineteen months later our second daughter arrived. Dr Gorgy treated us during both pregnancies. I really hope you find your answers soon x

So sorry @CurlyTwirlyTwos I'm afraid I don't have any words x