Idk what to do...
On one hand I love my boyfriend, I appreciate that he works hard to pay for our house, bills, and other expenses. I appreciate having those things, if we didnt live together I’d have no one else to stay with
On the other, he’s really irrresponsible, moody, uses me as an emotional punching bag, and probably one of the laziest ppl I’ve met.
My due date is March 30 and once a week for the past month we’ve gotten into really bad fights. He takes his anger out on me. He plays poker for a living; and when he doesn’t go well he gets really
Moody and takes it on me. I’m always there for him & use up all my emotional energy to make him feel better. But I’m going into labor any day. I have no time to cater to my own needs; and I’m so spent.
Day before my 39 week appt &!ultrasound he threw a huge fit over poker stuff and acted like it was my fault. Before then I had been crying for two hours to myself in our room just about some personal stuff I’ve been emotional about. Then I have to be his punching bag. Then next morning I put headphones in while I was getting ready for the dr and w/e bc I’m tryin to stay positive and he’s moaping aroind then asks me “do I have to come” and moaps like a baby so I said forget it I’d rather go alone then deal with u n he got very mad. I live an hr from the hospital; and onnhe back I get stuck in traffic and it takes almost 2 hrs to get home; and I had to do that drive by myself whn my due date is in 3 days. Since I was so stressed the baby wasn’t moving during the ultrasound and they had to use a vibrator/thing to make her move and it was just rlly
Scared to do that alone.
I texted him to
Explain how I felt and he said sorry when I got
Home he didn’t care n played video games and talked through a headset and drank beer till 5am. I woke up with nightmare sweats, trouble breathing, etc bc the whole night since I was anxious and keeping track of my baby
Movements scared that my stres is going to kill her. I couldn’t sleep because our house is small and he was yelling on the headset till 5am .. imchusr exhuated
All I wanted was a couple days to get strong for labor ajenhave things be about me but thy can’t. I’ve already asked my mom to drive me to the hospital bc I can’t rely on him and she lives an hr away it will take us
More than 2 hours to get therrr if she has to drive me and I’m scared.
On a completely orher side of things, I don’t want my newborn baby unable to sleep hc her dad is playing video games all night. N other reasons why I don’t like his lifestyle n want my
Baby raised around it. He throws temper tantrums is a really picky/unhealthy eater blah blah/
Idk what to do.