Hi all. I'm hoping someone in a similar situation to me can give me some advice or reassurance but don't worry if not.... I just need to get this out somewhere as I feel I'm going mad.
I've suffered from migraines and headaches since childhood, and started taking daily amitriptyline for them a few years ago which changed my life. Frequency of headaches was massively reduced, honestly I'm not exaggerating when I say those tablets really improved my quality of life.
Found out I was pregnant in February (I'll be 11 weeks tomorrow). I asked my GP about the amitriptyline and was told to stop taking them straight away. I burst into tears.
I was told that women often find that their headaches get much better during pregnancy, and to wait and see if this happens to me.
So far, there's been no improvement. My headaches are either daily, or every two days at least. Sometimes they are my classic right sided migraine.... Other times, a bad tension headache.... Today, the pain has moved over to the left side of my head.
I'm allowed paracetamol or Co-codamol only. Paracetamol alone does absolutely nothing. Co-codamol helps a bit more, but makes me so constipated, and also very dazed and "high" so I am unable to drive or go to work. I've tried everything else I can - 4head stick, cold compress/ice pack, but once the pain takes hold it is near impossible to get rid of.
I've taken ibuprofen on a couple of occasions when I know I shouldn't have. But I was literally clawing at my head in pain and would've done anything to get some relief.... Ibuprofen does help but once I feel a bit better I just feel horrible guilt that I may have put my baby at risk.
I've been signed off work for weeks. I'm going back to the GP tomorrow and will ask for yet more time off as I do not feel ready to go back in this state. However I will have to go back to work soon as I'm coming up to the point I won't be paid sick pay anymore. I'm the breadwinner in my house and this cannot happen.
This pregnancy has been miserable, I am either in horrible pain or I wake up afraid of whether the pain will start later on in the day or not. I haven't enjoyed a moment of this pregnancy because of this and am even beginning to wish it never happened. My midwife has put me as a "moderate risk" in the mental health category.
My blood pressure has been fine whenever it's been checked and I haven't had any proteinuria so they're not worried about pre-eclampsia risk at the moment.
I know I'm close to the second trimester when things are supposed to improve but everything seems to be getting worse and I'm terrified I've got six more months of this. I can't carry on like I am, I have to go back to work, I have to live my life, but I can't do it when in constant pain.
Honestly I spend most days wanting to bash my head against the wall until I knock myself out.
I'm sorry if I found whiney. I know I'm lucky to be pregnant and that loads of women don't get the chance. I know I'd be devastated deep down if something bad happened to the baby. But I'm at the end of my tether and would do anything for some relief to this nightmare I'm living in.
I'm not sure what else to say to the GP tomorrow. I'm thinking of asking to go back on the amitriptyline. At my booking appointment my midwife said I might have to and just get extra monitoring. Has anyone here ever taken this medication during pregnancy? Would really appreciate any help.