After some advice please

[BoroBird]

I’ve recently found out that I am pregnant. I don’t know how I feel about this as of yet as it wasn’t expected at all. I have no idea how far along either. I have went to the dr expecting it to be the same dr I always see and it was someone new who just felt my stomach and guessed I was under 12 weeks and then said to get a pregnancy pack from reception. I felt a bit pushed to the side and not a priority. There was no talk about any options or how I was feeling and at one point she had to use google to answer some of my questions.
Little back story, I already have a 10 year old son and he sees his dad on weekends and school holidays etc.
The father (my ex) of this child is aware of the situation and has said he will stand by me no matter what but when we have talked about this it is very very clear that he thinks that we should get an abortion.
When I was pregnant with my son I had mixed reactions from my family although all of them adore him now, I feel like it would happen again and it was an awful time, just thinking about it happening makes me sick to my stomach. Even more than the morning sickness!

There are only two people who know about this situation currently.
I’ve been reading articles online about women in similar circumstances to get a feel for both sides of the story if that makes sense.
I honestly can’t decide what to do.
I don’t know if I can bring a child into this world when I know the father is not wanting this (but again, who would stand by me no matter what. He is a really decent man and I trust him implicitly) but some of the stories I’ve read and heard over the years about abortion have terrified me. I feel like I’m stuck, I really could use someone with an outside perspective to maybe share what they did if they were in a similar circumstance?

I’m not asking for someone to make the descision for me, just some more facts and information about what worked for others.

Thanks in advance if anyone can help, if not I’m sorry for wasting your time

Hi Borobird,
Its such an emotional rollercoaster finding out you're pregnant, I really feel for you. It sounds like you would benefit from some time to make your decision. Perhaps it would be worth asking your GP for some advice regarding identifying how far along in the pregnancy you are so that you know how long you have to make your decision.
Do you have a friend who you trust who you could confide in to give you some support?

I had a termination a few years ago, the staff at the clinic were kind and i didnt feel judged at all. Im certainly not suggesting you take this option but want to reassure you that it is okay should you decide to go this way.
Take care of yourself x

I’m going to try to book an appointment to see my actual dr and not a stand in as I just didn’t feel any support or help from her. She was lovely as a person but not very helpful when I needed more information.
All I was given was the packs which were basically asking for my details so I could plan a birth at whichever hospital. Not something that could cover all bases such as if I didn’t want to get to the point of having a birth.
I know I can talk to him about this at any time day or night and he’s said if I ever need to talk then just ring him. The only other person who knows so far is a colleague from work and she’s been really supportive as well.

I’m having conflicting thoughts about this to the point where I have genuinely made a pro/con list. I’m taking some time to think it over but I’m also aware that time is slowly marching on and sooner or later I need to make a decision.

Thank you for replying though, I’m definitely going to check again with GP and I’ll be able to have a full chat in person with someone on Tuesday so hopefully I might have more of an idea of which way I want to go then. Fingers crossed! X