I'm a 35 year old woman living in my own. I had been dating someone for a month when he broke up with me to get back to his ex. I found out the day after, that we are pregnant. He is pressuring me to get an abortion, saying horrible things and threats (suicide, harm to me or baby, giving up moving/ disappearing, etc.) He painted a perfect picture of himself and us when we were together and that clearly was a complete lie. He is solely blaming me for getting pregnant, and saying how dare I even consider bringing a child not made out of love (but when the child was conceived he claimed to love me) into this world. How it would ruin his life (eff your life dude... I'm not concerned about that).
I have no support system because my family are all across the country. I would be doing this alone (he said his family would disown him and refuse to be involved). My finances are extremely tight, I work 4 jobs, 6 days a week. I am worried about child care, and cost, but also the impact of this entire situation on myself or a child. However, I also very much have always wanted a child, but given my single situation, did not think that would be a possibility. I had very specific plans for my NEAR future (career goals, athletic goals, etc.) that would have to change greatly.
I am teetering back and forth between pill abortion or keeping it and letting it grow into a little life. I want a child, and I do not want to regret not having one. But I am also worried, because this situation is FAR from ideal, and there could be detrimental consequences.
My brother who was trying to get me to be a little more logical said this: you have 2 options, one is to abort, and your life will be status quo, whatever that means to you (good or bad). 2, you keep it, and you will be diving into the unknown, and your life will forever be different, and you will forever be tied to this crazy person.
I am looking for advice/ others experiences in similar situations.