I'm really just feeling so fed up. I've been with my partner for almost 3 years and it hasn't always been the best. I'm currently 32 weeks pregnant with our first who was not planned, but still very much wanted by both my partner and I. Lately I just feel so down especially since we've moved into our own home together. We both work full time, he always tries to hold against me that his job is a lot harder than mine, but I'm a support worker for people with learning disabilities with whom have challenging behaviour. I also clean a lot and carry out personal care, and I'm 32 weeks pregnant trust me its not that easy. I also work longer, more unsociable hours than him and do more overtime than him.
I do all of the housework, on my days off I spend all day cleaning and getting ready for the baby, despite being really tired. As soon as he comes home he just plays his xbox and chats to his friends for hours, wont even come off his game to eat the dinner I've just cooked for him, and wont even do the dishes for me afterwards. If he ever has to do any jobs around the house he complains so much that he has to "clean up after me" and that I'm "so messy". Everything in the house was paid for by me, he's terrible with money and although does pay the bills, he can't save money at all and wastes it on stupid things like gym memberships he hardly uses. He hasn't brought a single thing for our baby, but whenever I try to bring money up he just says that I get all of my money handed to me by my family, just because they're generous and want to help us out. I'm 32 weeks pregnant, I sometimes work 50 hour weeks and I have about 5000 worth of savings I've saved over the years to put towards a mortgage one day.
We just seem to be arguing about everything, I feel like he's supposed to support and look after me now that I'm pregnant but he doesn't do that at all, he shouts at me, knows full well he is stressing me out and doesn't even seem that bothered in the pregnancy. He doesn't really want to communicate with me and we almost split up about 2 months ago because he was messaging another woman behind my back. I just feel at a loose end and I try every single day to tell him how I feel but I feel as if he just doesn't care. When I cry and tell him how I feel he practically laughs in my house and says I'm pathetic and stupid. I just don't feel loved and feel as though I may as well be on my own with how lonely I feel. I'm so excited for my little boy to arrive but I don't feel like I can be happy at the moment because there's just constant things for me to do that he never helps with.