Panic attacks and anxiety

[VioletGInPlease]

Im 35 weeks with 4th child 3rd labour was horrendous out of control birth too.

I'm literally having panic attacks about this labour one minute i rationalise the next I'm away at 10 i panic about natural labour , epi , c-section everything.

Also i suffer health anxiety stemming from my sons cardiac arrest at 12 days old and im starting to panic im going to die during labour or after as for the past two years had elevated white blood cells and im imagining they have missed something sinister.

During the day i feel great but as soon as night sets in my anxiety hits with a vengance to the extent im texting my mum asking if im going to live ... i had my anxiety under control until the past few weeks what is going on xx

Im so sorry that sounds awful! Are you getting help from your midwife does she know your concerns? You may benefit from being referred to perinatal mental health to help and support you?

I really urge you to speak to your midwife - there will be a perinatal mental health midwife at your local hospital that should be able to help you xx

No as I've had my anxiety under control without meds for 2 years now and my midwife has discharged me i only get seen by hospital as having reduced movements it's only just started in the past couple of weeks do you think it could be a hormonal shift ?

I seem better when i don't have any caffeine so try to stick to decaff but quite hard when at someones house xx

This sounds very upsetting Violetgin, I hope you have people like your mum who can support you.
I just wanted to say, I have Health Anxiety too because I nearly died a few years ago and I was so sure...totally convinced...I was going to die in labour this time. I was shaking and hyperventilating all through labour, waiting to die...But I was fine! My baby is 8 months old now and I'm still alive. And I've had no more anxiety since her birth! After 10 years of it.
So, I know you will be fine too. Telling the same story as me this time next year.
Best of luck with the birth. Maybe watch some hypnobirthing videos or Positive Affirmations for Birth on YouTube to help you feel calmer about it.

Thanks jamhands

Yes health anxiety is crippling just as much as social anxiety ... i had it under control im actually a carer as i feel it helps my anxiety but just past couple weeks have been hellish i don't know if it's more feeling out of control as i don't know how im going to give birth until consultant next week ive had two natural labours and 3rd was induced hell so very unsure about this one and because of anxiety i won't take pain meds incase i die from them.

epidural im scared of incase i have a stroke with it as i heard another women on here say she had a stroke with it.

So now panic mode incase i need a c-section as high chance I'll need surgery as previous labour retained all my placenta.