Hello everyone
I have been very lucky and had a really straightforward pregnancy so far. Had the GTT test, all fine, and blood pressure etc always ok. I have a high bmi, classified as obese before (unexpectedly) becoming pregnant. However, I have always exercised regularly and mostly eaten well, just been someone who is never going to be little.
I am extremely sensitive about this because it's always sort of dominated my life, trying to lose weight and paranoid that everything thinks I'm massive (I was a size 14 before getting pregnant though, which isn't that bad!). So I have found pregnancy weight gain very challenging. I've maintained exercising, though at 34 weeks I have had to slow down from boot camp style things to long walks.
Everything has been fine all the way along but today my midwife referred me for a growth scan because I'm measuring about 3cm more than I should. I am so so upset about this because I feel like I have failed my baby by not being healthy enough. I am terrified that he will be huge and the birth will be traumatic and that it's all my fault. I think this could mean I can't give birth at the birthing centre I want to and might have to go to the labour ward instead. And I'm terrified that yet again when I go for my scan tomorrow it will be pointed out to be that my BMI is too high and this makes everything harder.
Does a bigger bump mean the baby will be very big? And is this probably all down to my weight?