having a really hard time

[Parent19876]

hey guys.
I'm nearly ten weeks pregnant, and having a really hard time right now.
I'm back in living with my parents. My ex knows I'm pregnant but says he doesn't want another child (but we haven't spoken in two weeks as he's out of town). My parents are super supportive of me having this baby (they know I would really like to be a mom), but I'm just having a really hard time right now. I feel like a huge failure and I'm questioning how I'm going to raise a child in my parent's spare room. I'm unemployed right now but have job interviews lined up, and am trying my best to stay positive. I know it's first trimester, but I'm constantly nauseous, or vomiting, and feeling like i have the flu. I just don't know what to do to get out of this rut.
I wish my ex could be supportive, and I definitely understand why he's not, but I just feel so alone now. I know this is a huge ramble, and I don't really know what advice I'm looking for.

All I have is sympathy and hugs, but cannot advise. Good luck xx

This was me when I was expecting my first, although I didn't go back till I was around 6 months pregnant. Family support was amazing but I did feel in the way somewhat. I am now expecting baby number 5 and in a much better situation, I know it seems daunting right now but things will come together. For now just concentrate on you and baby and tackle everything else one thing at a time as you feel ready. Good luck

I care for my ex, and I don't want to 'trap' him or force him to be a part of this child's life if he doesn't want to. But I feel it's so much easier for males to say that termination is an option.
I know it's an option, but it's not one that I want to take at this time in my life. I know I'm going to have a very hard time being a single parent, even with family help. But I know I can do it, in one way or another.
Don't get me wrong, I want this child deeply. I think it's just a mixture of the anxiety of first trimester, hormones all over the place, and feeling overwhelmed? I don't know.
I feel like I'm not allowed to be excited and tell my friends, because he doesn't want me to continue the pregnancy. But, we haven't even spoken in two weeks. I can't tell my friends because most of them work in the same company as him, and he's their boss.

First of all it's your body and your baby as well, if he hadn't wanted a baby he should have covered up so has absolutely no right to now try and force or guilt trip you into something you don't want. I had an abortion after my fourth and have regretted it ever since so don't let him make you feel like you have no choice.
Being a single mum isnt easy but it's also not as bad as you think. I am currently single again and this Is baby 5! Also being a single mum means you get all the good bits as well as the hard, that first smile, when the first crawl or walk, every achievement they make you know you did it all by yourself. You also don't have to share cuddles lol
First trimester is the hardest part and there is a lot of emotions so just try and take it easy it does get better. I'm currently 33 weeks but my baby will be delivered by section next week due to complications. You can do this, good luck