For a couple weeks iv been feeling off and having symptoms so i took a test on the chance and its positive
Before i took a test i told my husband i was going to take a test and he was all you better not be
After i took it i told him i was he sat down and said oh f**k what are we guna do
I said I'm not sure and burst into tears
He said it'll all be okay and hugged me
Fast forward to today he says he'd love to continue but its just not smart too which in reality its not
We have 15 month old twins a 9 year old
A 3 bed private rented house which is expensive as it is and a finance car which is also quite expensive so would need to refinance as its only a 5 seater
He was just saying we don't have x, y, z & 1, 2, 3
Which it all makes sense but i don't think i can terminate
Its not ideal i've been on pill all this time and been consistent with it all along!
I mean i managed to not have any babies while on it for the 4 years we've been together before the twins and the almost 3 before him so i just don't know how its happened :( i mean i do know how i got pregnant i just don't know how my pill failed me
I told him i don't think i can terminate and he said we haven't got much choice
Which we already are skint/struggling but i think if we did it'd play on my mind and id regret it forever
he's told me to take another test which i will in morning
Im just so lost he keeps wanting to talk about it but i just get upset as he's saying same thing and I've said i don't think i can but so unsure what to do as i know its a bad idea to keep but dont think im mentally stable enough to abort