I found out I am pregnant just over two weeks ago and I am currently 7 weeks.
Although pregnancy and a baby of my own is something I have longed for, this was not a planned pregnancy.
My partner has 2 daughters from a previous relationship and my relationship with them is fantastic. From the word go, I made it clear I want them heavily involved in this pregnancy so that they feel included and that this is purely a new addition to the family we have created.
Unfortunately, prior to our news, my partner and I had not been getting along so well. A rocky patch like all relationships have and also his drinking habits are becoming more and more of a concern. He on the other hand doesn’t feel there is anything to be addressed.
From the moment I found out I was pregnant I have done my best to look after myself. He on the other hand seems to have ruined every opportunity for me to get remotely excited.
He says he is happy. He hasn't shown me this once.
He sulks, shouts, continues to get drunk every day and then tells me he feels depressed and worried we will not work out like his previous relationship. I've made it clear that I love him and want this to work but if he continues as he is the relationship will break down just like last time. You'd think this would motivate him to try harder.
We have know each other a very long time and have been together over 4 yrs. I thought he would be different. I thought he would be excited. I certainly thought he would feel a need to take care of me in this condition. No evidence of this as of yet.
I feel so alone and so disappointed in him for ruining what should be such a happy and exciting time for us both. This is certainly not what I have been longing for.