Hi im so excited/ nervous/ anxious/ pregnant!!!
I knew the week before Christmas but I couldnt let myself think it were true because I miscarried in June with my first ever after receiving bad medical advice. In part I blame myself because something inside me just knew the medication was wrong.
And right now im listening to my body instead. I suspect I may have been pregnant back in September but (again) my medication was not the right precursor to a healthy pregnancy. My partner isn't ever sure until he sees the two lines (psycho exes just cried wolf a lot) but now he knows it's true.
And doesnt want to think about it. face palm emoji here
I dont want to worry anyone but this is NOT medical advice by the way: just my own experience. As far as the past i was on tramadol (500 micrograms) and that is WAY over what a pregnant woman should have. The second loss I was on 200 mg of Pregabalin.
Both of these were to help with my chronic pain I suffer from with my kidney condition (it is unfortunately rare & without cure but it isn't genetic apparently). My partner is epileptic and is so much stronger than I am - he has the paitence, resilience and brilliance which caused me to fall for him. I am so humbled to be his mate.
And I feel so blessed.
Yet he is so resistant to this new addition.
Honestly I got implantation bleeding the day my great aunt passed away and I feel so strongly she would want this life (lives?? I want to feel this could be twins but my desire is overriding my intuition lol) that I cannot fathom letting go - not that I could before.
The timing is not great. The situation is not perfect. The love is too real. I want his children not just anyone's. He feels the same - just not now...
I found out by taking an ovulation test the day I was due (yesterday) and it came back positive so we're picking up the proper test tomorrow if my period still has not arrived.
But we know.
Symptoms include lower back pain not kidney related, peeing A LOT, exhaustion throughout the day, mood swings where right now I am a lot nicer I think, and this electricity running through my body.
Is anyone else early enough to announce it?
What are your signs or symptoms?
Anyone else having their first?
ahem little artistic flow from the bump who wants to say hello 😁😘:
Fingers crossed and baby dust
to all your efforts from love (or lust 😉)
I hope this is baby boom not bust,
And babyGap is an absolute must!!!
That last line: seriously. Sign up to their offers and do their survey for the best discounts on clothes that will LAST FOREVER. I used to work there and every parent insisted they buy as much baby stuff as they could and asked for vouchers. Im planning my local babyGap shop ASAP.
Im telling my friend I'm expecting as soon as I can so I can get excited.
Ooops wrote tons. So if you read this well done lol
AAAAAHHHHHH SO EXCITED!!!!