Feeling so overwhelmed and emotionally lost

[captainshortie]

I thought id be one of these ftm's who breeze through pregnancy. Be at one with myself and totally envelop the whole experience....

So far, ive had the worst 'morning' sickness for entire time, pgp to the point i can barley walk anymore(still got 6 weeks to go), a flat we moved into 3 months ago that needs so much doing to it but I can't do both the flat and the baby, its one or the other. My mam whos been there for me throughout, basically funded my baby(bought pretty much everything) which i feel insanley guilty about and my MIL whos contribution is a 2nd hand bag of clothes off facebook for £20, (yet still expects to come straight round when im in labour, and to come to hospital after baby is born, told my OH to firmly tell her no, thats what my mam is for, i dont want her anywhere near me) dont get me wrong I dont 'expect' to be bought things, but you can contribute different things than that.
A boyfriend who is supportive in his own way, but because its not the way anyone else would be supportive they dont see it like that.
I just cant cope anymore, i have such a good support network around me but I feel so alone, like im doing it all by myself. I cant wait to me little one, but Im worried incase ive made the wrong choice, should I have gotten pregnant? Should I have carried on? Im literally going to be the worst mam ever. I cant do it.

You are not, you are going to be an amazing mam. You are just exhausted, fed up, hormonal, and overwhelmed by this massive, life-changing event. It's completely normal. The last bit of pregnancy is so hard, and that's without also having things like a new flat to organise and a pushy MIL! It's physically and emotionally draining, and you sound like you've had a really bad time of it. You're on the home stretch now - it will end!

You can do it, honestly. I don't think there's a single person who doesn't feel like that at the end of pregnancy at one point or another. But when your little baby is here, you will be able to do more than you'd ever think.

The hormones are brutal - they are pretty baby causing a lot of your feelings atm. It's great that you've got a good support network - use it! Talk to your mam and boyfriend about how you are feeling so they can reassure you.

Try not to give yourself a hard time about things -it's hard to breeze through pregnancy when you have a really hard time of it - and try not to let small things get to you. Just focus on your baby and how much you love them, and let other things (e.g. your MIL's behaviour) just wash over you as much as you can.

Pregnancy can really take its toll, and you should talk to your midwife about how you're feeling if you're really struggling. They take maternal mental health very seriously, and are there to help. They won't think badly of you.

Take care of yourself, OP - it's not easy at the end, but you're nearly there and it's a whole different ball game when you have your baby in your arms.

Literally cried again reading your reply, thank you for being so nice

Aww captainshortie I know how you feel. I find it hard to ask for help without feeling guilty. But you're not pregnant for long, and you need to relax and take it easy. Your mam is right, but it is really hard to do! Things are so different with a baby, though, and you can't control everything or keep the house as tidy as pre-baby. My DH and I used to have the house spotless, but just can't do it now. Try not to get hung up on small things and just keep your eyes on the bigger picture. If you're finding it hard to get perspective, keep talking to people. You seem a bit anxious (from someone who is very anxious!) so get it all out, it'll help! Xx

Just a quick update for you, I gave birth to baby this morning, shes 5 weeks prem but shes amazing, 6lb5 oz of pure perfection x

Congratulations! All the best to the three of you.

Oh my goodness! Congratulations, amazing news! Xxx

That’s amazing! Congratulations.
Look after yourself in the middle of all this- you need your strength. If people are offering help- take it.
Enjoy those precious times. Xxx