Hi bad, sorry to hear you are so upset
. My clots have been horrific, big massive dark clumps
Yes I went today, and it didn’t quite go as i thought it would. Basically the sonographer did an external ultrasound first but couldn’t see enough so then did an internal ultrasound.
She explained that she could see the sac and a bean still inside but that it was very small (2.4mm) and for this reason she couldn’t find a heartbeat. She said that there are 2 possibilities : a) that my dates are correct and that the baby stopped growing a few weeks ago hence no heartbeat, or b) my dates are wrong and that I’m actually less than 6 weeks, in which case the size is about right and I won’t see a heartbeat yet 
I have to go back next Friday for a re-scan - If they can see that the baby has grown and they can detect a heartbeat then it’s fine. If the baby is measuring the same and still no heartbeat then they will know the pregnancy is not viable.
I don’t know how I feel - I went in today glad that I’ll finally know what’s going on and that i’ll be able to move on, but I’m now going to be in limbo until next Friday.
I have still consigned myself to accepting it’s a miscarriage and I refuse to be hopeful. The nurse who consulted with us after the scan said as my periods are very irregular, using the 1st of my LMP to calculate how many weeks I am may not be very accurate - and apparently the size of the baby vs the gestation period is based on the date of conception as opposed to the 1st day of the last period, does anyone know if this is correct? I did track my ovulation in November so when I get home I will check how long ago it was. It is a possibility that I am less than 6 weeks gone
The nurse said there was nothing on the scan that indicated I was miscarrying or would be miscarrying, no obvious reason why I was bleeding, and that actually the sac looked really healthy. She then said that it might be a positive sign that despite all the bleeding and heavy clots, the sac and baby is still there. I was so surprised that this is the case, I just can’t see how all of that blood and clotting could be anything other than the baby
. I was literally bleeding right up to the appointment and even on the bed itself when she was examining me
Feel like I’m no further forward, and now I have another 8 days to wait. They’ve said I should call them if I get pain or if my bleeding gets worse to the extent that I’m filling several pads a day.
I hope you get more answers tomorrow than I have @bad 