I'm currently 9+1 after a MMC in May - the baby was 8+4 and I was 12+4.
In my last pregnancy my dates were off by two weeks, however we saw this baby at 7+4 and it measured perfectly. My 12 week scan is in 2 weeks.
My issue is, I am exhausted, I'm sleeping 9-12 hours a night and still feel like I need more. I work in a stressful and challenging care setting and I'm really struggling to get up for shifts and getting my work done. I don't get sick pay and I'll be working across the entire Christmas period including Christmas Eve/Day.
Part of me wants to take a week off, which I could just about afford, but I'm so terrified my 12 week scan will come back with bad news, and I'll need to take time off for an ERPC again. I'm feeling so stressed and anxious, I can't seem to get my head straight and do what is best for myself. I have mental health difficulties also and have convinced myself that I can't take time off, because the baby probably doesn't have a heartbeat anymore, so there is nothing really "wrong" with me.
Sorry this is such a ramble, I guess I'm just looking for a handhold/some kind words/some advice, this is such a hard time.