When I had my fourth baby, I was the happiest and most confident I'd ever been. I absolutely loved having a new baby and the other children loved her too. Things were perfect... And then my husband came home from work when she was six weeks old, said he wasn't happy, and left.
That started hell on earth for me... Four young children on my own, my confidence shattered, no money, my ex husband continuing to be abusive even though he had gone, not seeing the DC, not paying maintenance...
Somehow I got through it, have remarried and am now happily pregnant with our first baby together (after having a miscarriage on honeymoon, of all places).
I'm only 9 weeks but I think deep down the same thing is going to happen again. One of DH's friends has just split up with the mother of his child and I can't help saying things like "That could be us in a few years" etc. I've even googled about legal advice re the house if he decided to fuck off!!
Just can't relax :(