I am currently 13 weeks with my 5th baby. My youngest is nearly 9, it was not a planned pregnancy. I was early twenties with all my four, now I'm mid thirties and this pregnancy has been so different. It started as a twin pregnancy but sadly one twin didn't make it. I felt sick all day long but its lifted now. I have no motivation to do anything at all and just want to be left alone.
Everything is annoying me just now, especially sounds. DH and the kids chewing food, the dogs chewing and licking, barking etc. As in irrationally angry. Ive gone completely off DH and have not been interested in sex at all since I found out I was expecting. I ignore phone calls and messages and am struggling to do my job, which is retail based and only part time, but at the moment I can't stand it.
It's like this pregnancy has changed me into this snappy, lazy, person and I hate it.
I am already on sertraline having had two severe depressive episodes in the past four years and am unlikely to ever come off them.
I don't feel depressed, just angry and wanting to be left alone. It's my DH first baby and should be an exciting time for him, I feel like I am ruining it.
I am scared I won't be any good at raising a baby after so many years. This baby won't have its own room, which is a first, the things I used with my first four are no longer sold, times have moved on so fast.
I don't know what I'm looking for, maybe someone that can relate and tell me things will be okay.