Hi everyone, I have the dreaded pregnancy anxiety in full force right now. I suffered with anxiety and depression pretty badly before I got pregnant and now that I'm 31 weeks and 20 years old the anxiety has reared its head big time. I am still being told by everyone that they can't believe how far along I am and it's gone from being a compliment to a point of dread. My bump is near none existent and I am an average height of 5'5 and pre pregnancy was about a size 14. On top of that my baby's growth is in the lowest percentile every time my midwife measures her and I cannot cope with the worry I have everyday. My midwife even asked me if I smoked and I know it's because she's wondering why my baby is so small :( if I'm completely honest during the pregnancy I've had around three cigarettes and four ciders altogether, and I drank pretty heavily once or twice before I found at (found out at 10 weeks, a few weeks after my 20th birthday). My midwife is very impersonal and I don't feel I can confide in her so my anxiety is sky rocketing everyday and I'm making myself a mess with constant googling trying to find out what's the cause of my small baba. Can anyone relate to my story and give me something to help calm my neurotic brain out lol. Thanks guys xx 