So, I've now had 3 early pregnancy scans (following pain/cramping), I'm consistently measuring about 1 and a half weeks behind which was worrying enough in itself (it's not impossible that this is true through late ovulation and based on when we DTD).
At the first (private) scan there was just a gestational sac, the second (EPU) scan there was a yolk sac.
Yesterday I had the latest of the three scans (private follow up), and there was now a second yolk sac. Both yolk sacs had little flickering bits, but the second yolk sac measured a bit smaller than the first and the sonographer didn't put that yolk sac's flickering in her report, although she did point it out on the screen.
Next scan is Tuesday next week which is an EPU follow up, where hopefully I will get some reassurance/answers. But in the mean time I'm thinking myself into a frenzy! I expect the chances of either/both making it might not be great, especially since the second is measuring smaller than the first.
I would love to have these two babies, and will happily welcome the challenges (and joys) that this will bring. But I then am terrified of having two babies at once, and the impact that will have on my DD and my relationship with my DD. I'm also terrified I'll lose one or both of these babies. I don't want to get excited because of the risks, but I can't help sometimes getting excited and thinking about how lucky I am, then I start thinking again and it all goes to a mess. I've been crying on and off and just wish time would hurry up a bit whilst not wanting to rush through this developmental stage of my DD.
Doesn't help that I'm also exhausted and seem to have some kind of a cold!
Anyway, thanks for reading, wanted to get this out a bit and could do with some support / positive stories xx