Found out I'm 6 weeks with 2nd baby. we have been planning to try for a while but then it only actually ended up taking one night as I was starting to stop my pill to actually conceive. Now this is obviously great news, i was really convinced that it would take us a long time so it was quite a shock. I don't know if this is why it's taking me a bit longer to get my head around it. With my first pregnancy I was ecstatic; this pregnancy I am worried about telling my friend whose wedding I will miss, worried about telling work as I know it will affect long term plans that are in place, worried about telling my friend who is currently struggling with IVF. I keep seeing these events and almost feeling a pang of disappointment that I won't be able to go to a certain party or concert because I'm pregnant. I'm worrying about my DD and how much time I will get to spend with her and how I will keep my patience and temper with her when I'm sleep deprived up all night with a newborn. I'm feeling guilty that I'm not feeling excited for this little bean inside me that I am so lucky to have when so many people struggle. I feel ashamed to feel like this.