Terrified of losing another baby I can't stop crying and can't love my normal life

[princessbala]

Please can anyone help me? I have lost a baby 3 months ago and I am about 5 weeks pregnant now... I am convinced the baby has died.... I have taken a test every day since finding out I'm pregnant, but sometimes they're fainter, I was at the hospital yesterday as I was having pains and lack of pregnancy symptoms.... they did a hcg test and it came back 370 which is apparently low, and they couldn't see anything on the ultrasound apart from my cervix is closed and uterus lining is thick.... but apparently I have some free flowing fluid in my abdomen!? I'm absolutely terrified that the baby's gone and cannot sleep/eat or do anything... I have to wait until tomorrow to go back for repeat hcg tests but I won't get the results for a few days after.... I really cannot go on like this I think I'm going to go mad

I’m sorry you are going through this. Such a worry but you’ve done the right thing getting checked out and it sounds like they are doing all they can.

The tests lines may be different because of your wee being more/less diluted. In terms of preg symptoms I didn’t really have any until almost 8 weeks with my first. So those two things aren’t conclusive.

All you can do for now is try to distract yourself. You’ll know what will suit you but maybe hole up under a duvet and binge watch something on tv, or play games on your phone or get out do some shopping/browsing, see a friend.

Hang in there and really hope you get good news.

I am sorry that this is playing on your mind to such a degree. Time will tell when it comes to your pregnancy and all you can do is to try and distract yourself with other things.

Sympathies. It's rubbish. But unfortunately in my experience (7 pregnancies, 3 dcs) the anxiety is just something you have to learn to live with. If it becomes too difficult, it's probably best to stop trying.

Sending my love.
We suffered 3 m/c at 12 weeks each. Each time we got pregnant the anxiety was horrid. Then, the 4th time we got to the 12 week scan. Then the 20th. Now we're sat in the labour ward, waters broken, no contractions but being induced awaiting our arrival.
It's hard. So very hard. But the time will come. And the time is worth it.

Hope you get your dream soon.

Thankyou all for your replies, I have tried to be calmer today and just trying to focus on other things.

Good luck with your labour! You will do amazing, it will be so worth it in the end xxx