This is my first pregnancy. 25 weeks with twins. Go on mat leave in 6 weeks because I’m really struggling physically and with tiredness.
When I was younger all my friends had visions of being a parent from the age of about 14! I never had that. I was more interested in chocolate & makeup! I could never really understand why my friends would talk about it with such passion at a young age because I wasn’t like that - but now as I’m older I totally understand everyone is different etc. Even when I got to the age of 20 I still didn’t really think much about it. I was loving the single life, I enjoyed going out and partying, having a family never really crossed my mind.
Fast forward to the age of 21, I met my husband and for some strange reason I just knew instantly he was the man I would marry & have a family with. And I could actually understand the excitement and happiness that my other friends felt when thinking about it. 4 years later I couldn’t wait to fall pregnant and was worried it would take me ages, I came off the pill not expecting anything and I actually fell pregnant the same month. I know how lucky I am and I feel grateful. But I’m now worrying that because I didn’t have that desire from a young age to be a mum that I will be a shit mum and I won’t enjoy it. What if I hate it? What if I don’t have a connection with my babies? What if I’m completely miserable?
I understand this is probably normal and due to hormones but I am really scared! 🙈