So here's the back-story; in my forst pregnancy I suffered terrible HG. I vomitted 5-6 times per day from werks 7 to 17 and regularly vomitted blood from the tearing my my throat lining. It was an incredibly lonely and difficult time and meant I had to sign off work for 6 weeks, miss lots of social events and didnt begin to enjoy pregnancy until week 18.
Ds was born 19 months ago at 29+5 gestation for unknown reasons. He was in hospital for 8 weeks and required groundbreaking brain surgery. When he finally came out he suffered reflux and cmpa as well as a soy allergy. It was a very hard time but now he's doing amazingly and has come so far!
I'm now 7+4 weeks pregnant with dc2 and the cycle is starting again. I'm puking so regularly that I can't drive incase I'm sick on the way. I'm taking the same meds I was given last time but they aren't making a difference. My day is spent either asleep, feeling nauseus or vomitting and I haven't left the house since Thursday.
I'm just so sad. I need to sign off work tomorrow and I know it will be for a good number of weeks. It's worse this time because we've moved house and I need to drive to get anywhere and it's just not safe at the moment.
My dh has been amazing; just like last time. He's taking ds for most of the time, making me food when I feel I can eat, and ensuring life goes on. I'm just gutted that I'm missing out on so much. Ds is great fun and he and dh are in town today choosing a guitar for dh with the money I gave him for his bday. I'm so sad I cant be there.
My booking appointment isn't until week 10 so it's still a while before I see a midwife, although I'll be consultant led this time around.
I need to see a doctor but because we've moved I have to travel to the other side of the city to attend my old practice as I cant register here without loosing my booking and scan appointments (different local authorities)
I'm sad that its all happening again and I'm terrified of having another prem baby; it's really impossible to describe how hard it is seeing your tiny, 3lb baby fighting for their life every day and not being allowed to stay with them (you are discharged after the normal time so baby stays in hospital without you and you visit durung the day)
I just need a hand-hold I guess. This is so hard and I feel so sick and, although I know this will end eventually I don't know that I'll have a healthy baby at the end.